The need to feel free and alive
i don't regret never living it up or knowing what it would be like to be a carefree teenager and college student. that wasn't me and it wasn't the life i was given. carefree was a luxury i didn't have, but as a result i am where i am today and have accomplished so much in spite of my upbringing and where i come from, and i am very, very proud of it and all i have done.
Still.....there are times when i watch music videos like aerosmith's crazy and see how free liv tyler and alicia silverstone seem. yes it is just a video, but that feeling of being tied down to nothing, is something i dont think i will ever know. i love my life too much to let go all my responsibilities that i have worked so hard to have for a fleeting moment that would probably have negative repercussions as well. many people look back on that time in their lives and wish they could go back, i dont have that to look back to because it just wasn't who i was or who i am.
Still.....watching other people live carefree and seeing that expression on their face is something i may always long to know.....
its just not worth it though.
Still.....there are times when i watch music videos like aerosmith's crazy and see how free liv tyler and alicia silverstone seem. yes it is just a video, but that feeling of being tied down to nothing, is something i dont think i will ever know. i love my life too much to let go all my responsibilities that i have worked so hard to have for a fleeting moment that would probably have negative repercussions as well. many people look back on that time in their lives and wish they could go back, i dont have that to look back to because it just wasn't who i was or who i am.
Still.....watching other people live carefree and seeing that expression on their face is something i may always long to know.....
its just not worth it though.