Year 2010
I feel like killing myself! I was about to finish typing the post until I accidentally hit the 'back' button which eventually led me to the previous webpage! And... I didn't save that post!
*Argh*
So, I'm going to try my very best to recall and churn out whatever I've just typed.
Here goes:
Time flies! 2010 is coming to an end!
Looking back, it has been a very satisfying and fulfilling year. I'd accomplished missions which I once doubted myself for. In the past, I did not have much self-confidence and hence, I tended to be very pessimistic. Negative thoughts would ruthlessly linger in my mind; "Do I have the necessary abilities and determination to succeed?" "I don't think I will achieve it." These were just some ugly question/statement which I would never fail to question and affirm myself with.
Unsure of when or what it was that changed my perspectives of both myself and my surroundings, I managed to see a completely new and different side of me through the accomplishment of the missions which I once deemed impossible to accomplish. I still am quite a worrier and would sometimes question my abilities, however, I can feel the difference in myself, a good and refreshing one. I'm now a much more confident person and I believe in myself more. :)
Here's a recap on the happening events/missions which I had cleared...
Mission One:
A stressful and tiring Practicum.
It was a long journey filled with tremendous stress, sweat and tears. Of course, not forgetting, the sweetness of success when I was informed that I cleared it with flying colours. :)
I really would like to express my appreciation and gratitude to my family, friends and Practicum-mates. Thank you for the constant encouragement and motivation. You were always there when I needed you the most.
I will never forget how I broke down in front of my parents at the dining table while having our dinner. I could not take the stress and I tried my best to withhold the tears, but alas, they were uncontrollable. My parents were shocked and they didn't say a thing. They just sat there and watched me tear. After calming down, they gave me a pat and reassured me that I'll succeed. True enough, I did. I've to admit that there is a part of me which really desire to prove to them that I will succeed. I really want to make them proud. :)
The stress also caused me to suffer from a slight depression --> Those days, I could hear children's voices when I was sleeping. Scary, wasn't it? You might be wondering why I kept talking about stress. Yes, I've to admit that I'm not good at dealing with stress (am still working on it). Anyways, the reason for it was because I did not have a good balance of work and play. It was work throughout. I could have worked 24 hours a day if sleep was unnecessary. I practically worked 18 hours a day and this applied for my weekends as well. Can you just imagine life being just WORK and NOTHING ELSE?!?! That was how it was like for me back then.
Looking back, I'm so glad that I did not give up. And, I'm proud to be where I am today. :)
Mission Two:
Graduation.
One of my dreams was to graduate and receive a degree from a local university in the presence of my family. And... It came true in July this year. :)
I drove them to NTU and I will never forget the glow and smile they had on their faces. As I was receiving my Degree on stage from the Guest-of-Honour, I could see them smiling, waving and clapping their hands in their seats. Thank you for always believing in me and thank you for being there. I will never be where I am today without you. :)
With that, I ended my 4 years in University and I've decided to put a 'comma' to my life as a student. Why 'comma'? :)
Because I believe that learning never ends and my next dream is to obtain a Masters. Possible? I'm not sure... Yes, I know, self-doubting again.
I'm going to spend the next few years working first. It's time to help bring the bacon home. :)
Mission Three:
WORK.
Yes, I've started working. It was similar to life during the practicum (as mentioned under 'Mission One'). Working non-stop, even during weekends. However, what I find amusing, or rather pleasant is, I enjoy what I am doing! It could be the kids, it could be the responsibilities which positively motivated me to love what I am doing.
Still trying my best to learn how to deal with stress. And.. I'm trying to have a balance too. I'll occasionally meet up with my friends etc. Splurge on meals and clothes. :)
Mission Four:
Love.
No, I'm not talking about my other half, who has yet to appear. I'm talking about family love. I'm not someone who is good at expressing myself. I don't say mushy things and I find it awkward to give presents on occasions other than Birthdays.
Anyways, I feel that it's time for me to express my appreciation and gratitude to my parents. I splurged on a massage chair for them. :)
It was good to see that they like it alot. :)
Alright, I've typed long enough.
I'm going to enjoy my holidays before work starts. :)
Enjoy yours too~
Oh ya, I've fallen in love with Korea. I wanna learn their language so that I can sing and understand their songs and so that I can watch, listen and understand their dramas without having to read the subtitles! :)
Bye~
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
*Argh*
So, I'm going to try my very best to recall and churn out whatever I've just typed.
Here goes:
Time flies! 2010 is coming to an end!
Looking back, it has been a very satisfying and fulfilling year. I'd accomplished missions which I once doubted myself for. In the past, I did not have much self-confidence and hence, I tended to be very pessimistic. Negative thoughts would ruthlessly linger in my mind; "Do I have the necessary abilities and determination to succeed?" "I don't think I will achieve it." These were just some ugly question/statement which I would never fail to question and affirm myself with.
Unsure of when or what it was that changed my perspectives of both myself and my surroundings, I managed to see a completely new and different side of me through the accomplishment of the missions which I once deemed impossible to accomplish. I still am quite a worrier and would sometimes question my abilities, however, I can feel the difference in myself, a good and refreshing one. I'm now a much more confident person and I believe in myself more. :)
Here's a recap on the happening events/missions which I had cleared...
Mission One:
A stressful and tiring Practicum.
It was a long journey filled with tremendous stress, sweat and tears. Of course, not forgetting, the sweetness of success when I was informed that I cleared it with flying colours. :)
I really would like to express my appreciation and gratitude to my family, friends and Practicum-mates. Thank you for the constant encouragement and motivation. You were always there when I needed you the most.
I will never forget how I broke down in front of my parents at the dining table while having our dinner. I could not take the stress and I tried my best to withhold the tears, but alas, they were uncontrollable. My parents were shocked and they didn't say a thing. They just sat there and watched me tear. After calming down, they gave me a pat and reassured me that I'll succeed. True enough, I did. I've to admit that there is a part of me which really desire to prove to them that I will succeed. I really want to make them proud. :)
The stress also caused me to suffer from a slight depression --> Those days, I could hear children's voices when I was sleeping. Scary, wasn't it? You might be wondering why I kept talking about stress. Yes, I've to admit that I'm not good at dealing with stress (am still working on it). Anyways, the reason for it was because I did not have a good balance of work and play. It was work throughout. I could have worked 24 hours a day if sleep was unnecessary. I practically worked 18 hours a day and this applied for my weekends as well. Can you just imagine life being just WORK and NOTHING ELSE?!?! That was how it was like for me back then.
Looking back, I'm so glad that I did not give up. And, I'm proud to be where I am today. :)
Mission Two:
Graduation.
One of my dreams was to graduate and receive a degree from a local university in the presence of my family. And... It came true in July this year. :)
I drove them to NTU and I will never forget the glow and smile they had on their faces. As I was receiving my Degree on stage from the Guest-of-Honour, I could see them smiling, waving and clapping their hands in their seats. Thank you for always believing in me and thank you for being there. I will never be where I am today without you. :)
With that, I ended my 4 years in University and I've decided to put a 'comma' to my life as a student. Why 'comma'? :)
Because I believe that learning never ends and my next dream is to obtain a Masters. Possible? I'm not sure... Yes, I know, self-doubting again.
I'm going to spend the next few years working first. It's time to help bring the bacon home. :)
Mission Three:
WORK.
Yes, I've started working. It was similar to life during the practicum (as mentioned under 'Mission One'). Working non-stop, even during weekends. However, what I find amusing, or rather pleasant is, I enjoy what I am doing! It could be the kids, it could be the responsibilities which positively motivated me to love what I am doing.
Still trying my best to learn how to deal with stress. And.. I'm trying to have a balance too. I'll occasionally meet up with my friends etc. Splurge on meals and clothes. :)
Mission Four:
Love.
No, I'm not talking about my other half, who has yet to appear. I'm talking about family love. I'm not someone who is good at expressing myself. I don't say mushy things and I find it awkward to give presents on occasions other than Birthdays.
Anyways, I feel that it's time for me to express my appreciation and gratitude to my parents. I splurged on a massage chair for them. :)
It was good to see that they like it alot. :)
Alright, I've typed long enough.
I'm going to enjoy my holidays before work starts. :)
Enjoy yours too~
Oh ya, I've fallen in love with Korea. I wanna learn their language so that I can sing and understand their songs and so that I can watch, listen and understand their dramas without having to read the subtitles! :)
Bye~
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!