Jun 23, 2008 09:48
My girlfriend's upset. I'm not sure what made her this way. She had a bunch of panic attacks on Saturday. She hasn't been the same since. I dunno what I'm suppose to do about that.
We went to Ulana's on Saturday night to see John. I miss him terribly. People I use to know where there. People with piss poor attutides that think they're so much better than me.
Let me lay it down for you, I am happy. Which is something that most people won't ever be. I have some plans & goals for the future. I'm comfortable enough in my own skin to say that I won't be dressing up like I'm a 20 something when I'm 40+. I'm not going to tell people that their lives are less important. Darling if only you knew that my life is focused on what I want & a lot less what the fucking catty, craptastic people at the goth club thing. An old goth club, where goths go to die. They're already dead. With their failed marriages & sorry excuse for love. None of you apart from John are my friends. I think we're all worthless skin. Still insecure about putting on weight & losing you hair, you spend all this time on your look that you've lost your personality along the way.
/endrant
I have so much I need to do before the gym today. I'm exhausted already.
DAYNA