anxiety
Sometimes the way my brain works just doesn't make sense. How is it that I can stress out and worry about the most inconsequential, banal things and yet not feel the least bit anxious about something so huge? I first noticed this phenomenon before my study abroad trip to Costa Rica. People would ask me all the time, "Are you nervous?" and I realized that I wasn't. There was plenty to be nervous about since I didn't know a single soul going on the trip, but, since I didn't really know what to expect, I just didn't worry about it.
I also felt the same way about buying a house. Naturally, most people would be a little bit nervous about making such a large purchase and having a huge monthly responsibility for the next 30yrs that ties you to the other person who signed on the dotted line but I never even gave it a second thought.
And now, my life is about to change in the most amazing way. Cindy is feeling very nervous about the responsibility of raising a child, but I'm not. Not in the least. Even I am finding that odd about my own feelings, but I just feel confident that we'll do a good job. Maybe I'm just ignorant, but I'm looking forward to all the challenges we'll face because I know great joy will come along with them.
I also felt the same way about buying a house. Naturally, most people would be a little bit nervous about making such a large purchase and having a huge monthly responsibility for the next 30yrs that ties you to the other person who signed on the dotted line but I never even gave it a second thought.
And now, my life is about to change in the most amazing way. Cindy is feeling very nervous about the responsibility of raising a child, but I'm not. Not in the least. Even I am finding that odd about my own feelings, but I just feel confident that we'll do a good job. Maybe I'm just ignorant, but I'm looking forward to all the challenges we'll face because I know great joy will come along with them.