I'm sorry
I feel horrible, I really haven't spent much time here in the past few months and all and I feel like I owe it to you guys to at least update and be active in groups and mod groups and all. I'm such a horrible person... I'd tell you guys what I've been through but I think it would only make me feel even worse because I'd feel like I'm giving you excuses. I also just need to blow off some steam, and LJ is the only "place" where I truly feel at home. I just wish that things would be easier. I've chosen that I'm going to pursue a career in acting, but I'm just so nervous of taking those first steps towards following that dream.. My parents aren't the most "understanding" of folks and I feel like letting them on to too much would practically be suicide. The whole situation is worsened by the fact that my sister insists that she's the next Selena Gomez, and whether I like it or not I think that any steps I make into the acting field my sister will be right there behind me. This is something I truly feel I should be doing on my own. If I don't act soon I feel like I might never even have a chance at being an actor, starting young would probably be the best thing for me. GRR it's just all so difficult. I wish there was some easy answer to it all. I honestly don't know how much of this made sense, but whatever? :/ I'll try and start being more active soon!