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I'm tired, in pain, and sick of all this. Its getting rediculous. I hate my job, I hate my life, and I wish I could just shoot myself in the head. I'm sick of being told that going to church will save me and solve all my problems, and i'm sick of people yelling at me in different languages. I'm sick of pakis, i'm sick of black people, i'm sick of this whole fucking world.
My job sucks ass, i'm constantly on my feet, it kills my arms hands and legs, and my arthritis is horrible. afternoon shift is absolutly rediculous. smoking is the only way to cope with this shit. But what sucks is that I can't even quit or else I won't have a place to live because I won't have any money. And either way, All my money Is going to end up going to debts.
The only thing thats keeping me sane anymore is Darren, and yet, I havn't seen him in a while.. It feels like somekind of withdrawl when i'm not around him.. I've falled for him -_- and its killing me because I don't even know how he feels...
Well my life is falling apart more and more.. so I don't know anymore...
My job sucks ass, i'm constantly on my feet, it kills my arms hands and legs, and my arthritis is horrible. afternoon shift is absolutly rediculous. smoking is the only way to cope with this shit. But what sucks is that I can't even quit or else I won't have a place to live because I won't have any money. And either way, All my money Is going to end up going to debts.
The only thing thats keeping me sane anymore is Darren, and yet, I havn't seen him in a while.. It feels like somekind of withdrawl when i'm not around him.. I've falled for him -_- and its killing me because I don't even know how he feels...
Well my life is falling apart more and more.. so I don't know anymore...