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Went and saw Clerks 2 last night. It was good. For most of the movie all I could think about was me and rob, and I know he was doing the same b/c he would rub my leg at certain parts when i'd be about to squeeze his arm. I really love him. I think we're perfect for eachother, as perfect as anyone can be. I've been spending every minute I can with him since we went to the beach. He keeps asking if its too much, if i need space and all that crap. but i don't. He needs to stop worrying and asking and all that stuff. I'll let him know when I need space and I've told him that. But yeah, I've been spending like every minute with him.
We went to the beach wednesday, me robby, cocoa, beth and scott. It was fun. Beth and I built a sand castle, and I made cookies to bring, they were BOMB cookies. Robby really liked them :) *grins like an ape* We went swimming and all that fun stuff. It was a long day, but it was amazing. Rob and I fell asleep on the beach, I slept for about 5 minutes and him about 20. He woke up and had a terrible sun burn. Oh yeah and a few days before that, i dyed his hiar purple. and it was like all washed out because we went swimming at alex's house and then we went to the beach and all that fun stuff. After the beach we went home and showerd and all that, then we went to get KFC it was good. (beth rob and cocoa, scott went home for a class) I was like what do u want for sides... *cocoa* "BISCUITS! ALLLLLLLLLLLLL Biscuits!!!" Went back to robs with cocoa and watched texas chainsaw massacre the ORIGINAL. Took rob to the hospital at like 11 that night for sun poisoning. We drove to norwood, and waited 2 hours, then they took him to a room and he came out an hour later, no one wnet in to see him. He fell asleep and finally woke up and came out. Cocoa and i were freezng in the wiating room. Got home about 3.
Went to robs the next day and hung out with him and cocoa. Don't really remember what we did. smae thing friday. Cant really remember. I think we went to Mike and Nikki's in foxboro friday, that may have been thursday, whatever lol. We wnet and it was fun. People were stupid and drank Steves beer and then denyd it. Dumb bitches. this fat ass that kept taking his beer was hitting on rob all night. They went to leave and she tried to like ksis him.... wtf... I had my arms around his neck and shit and shes all like mwah. but whatever. Before we went to his cousins house i had to go home and then i went back over at like 6, I called him to say i was on the wya over and i guess he was fighting with his mom, he called me at like 640 and was crying and i went over and he answerd the door and was crying. His mom said that he was a failiur adn just like his father she was going to kick him out and hsut off his phone and all this stuff so he was really upset, and on top of that, he was losing chunks of hair. Cocoa gave him black people hair relaxor. His hair is bleached, adn dyed, so that was bad to begin with... and hes WHITE. you cant do that. Cocoa lost his hair too only the bleached part. I had to shave robbys head. Hes so upset about it. He had been growing his hair out for months and now its all gone. I kinda like it though, I think its hot.
Slept at his house saturday. :) I'm the happiestive ever been and he says the same. We went to the collectors guild with corey so they could play poker with techno masta P and all his friends. Robby won $40 hehe :) He kept telling me we could leave b/c i was sooo tired and hot nad shit but i made him stay nad play, then we went home, corey dropped us off and went back to play. We started watching the Ref and then cocoa came to the windo with a flashlight lol and we let him in and he watched the ref adn i slept. I woke up at the end of it. Rob looked like he was thinking about something and i ketp asking what was wrong till he told me. He said it was tht his mom said he was a faliuer. and I told him he wasnt. That he was a very strong person and nothing like his dad. that he was amazing and would be something. He smiled and said really. and i said yes.
he continued to look like osmething was bothering him. He siad there were so many things he wanted to tell me but was afraid to. I told him the hardest part was starting. Its the happiest hes been his whole life. He loves me to death and would do anything for me, and I know that. (It was now like 4 in the morning) He went on and on for a long time. I cried. nad the more he said the happier he got. He was so into what he was saying and he was so happy and he like jumped up onto his side so he could be looking down on me. He might have been crouching i dont even know. I cried b/c i have my period and im far more emotional than I should be. He tlaked about how he can see himself with me, and how he cares about what happens to him now, where before me, he coulnt give a shit if he was hit by a truck. but now, he has someything to live for. Someone to take care of. He wants to marry me and have kids. Before he couldnt give a shit aobut any of that. Nor could I. then I met him and I knew. I knew from the first time we spoke that I would be with him someday. its been like 5 months and not a single fight. Its amazing. He said it too. 5 months and no fighting. He doesnt ever want to fight b.c nothing is worth fighting about. and when something is he wants to argue and then he wants us to apologize right after and have make up sex and say i love u and tell the other they were right. He wants all of that with me. Its amazing how alike he and i think. all day I was thinking about marriage and him. How i wanted to tell him that someday i wnated to marry him nad then bam he finally came out and said it. He siad that if we cna make it 5 months without a fight that we have to be togheter. that if we're together in 2 years it will be amazing and that when the time comes he'll ask me, and it will be big. He said he knows were younge nad that i'm 18 and just out of highschool and he knows there is so much more out there in the world and he dosnet wnat to hold me back. that he knows there are thousands of other men and that i could find someonebetter if i looked... He was afraid hed scare me away, I told him he could never do that. He woke up the next morning and said, you're still here with a big cheesy grin i kissed him adn said forever.... I dont wnat to look. I want him. I want to be with Rob. I want to be with him for a very long time. I dont care if we get married. I dont care how long we last. I just care that I'm happy and head over heels in love with him. I knew from the start this relationship would be long. this has been the fastes 5 months of my life, and he siad the same. I wish i had a video camera or something for the conversation we had. it was amazing. I cried. No one has ever made me ahppy enough to cry. We sat and cuddled for a long time. we stared at eachother and smiled and kissed. The next morning when we got up at like 11 we hugged and stroked eachother. we went to breakfast with cocoa and we were more clingy then ever. i think that conversation has changed us. I think it brought us to a new level. I feel like i'm already married to him or osmething.
I'm so inlove I don;t know what to do. He just left... an hour and 13 minutes ago. and already i miss him. he didnt wnat to go. and I didnt want to let him. we have such a hard time saying good bye. this afternoon when i left at 445 to come home for supper, he said he didnt wnat me to go b/c hes afraid it will be the last time he sees me. I dont know what i'd do, if naything ever happend to him.
We went to the beach wednesday, me robby, cocoa, beth and scott. It was fun. Beth and I built a sand castle, and I made cookies to bring, they were BOMB cookies. Robby really liked them :) *grins like an ape* We went swimming and all that fun stuff. It was a long day, but it was amazing. Rob and I fell asleep on the beach, I slept for about 5 minutes and him about 20. He woke up and had a terrible sun burn. Oh yeah and a few days before that, i dyed his hiar purple. and it was like all washed out because we went swimming at alex's house and then we went to the beach and all that fun stuff. After the beach we went home and showerd and all that, then we went to get KFC it was good. (beth rob and cocoa, scott went home for a class) I was like what do u want for sides... *cocoa* "BISCUITS! ALLLLLLLLLLLLL Biscuits!!!" Went back to robs with cocoa and watched texas chainsaw massacre the ORIGINAL. Took rob to the hospital at like 11 that night for sun poisoning. We drove to norwood, and waited 2 hours, then they took him to a room and he came out an hour later, no one wnet in to see him. He fell asleep and finally woke up and came out. Cocoa and i were freezng in the wiating room. Got home about 3.
Went to robs the next day and hung out with him and cocoa. Don't really remember what we did. smae thing friday. Cant really remember. I think we went to Mike and Nikki's in foxboro friday, that may have been thursday, whatever lol. We wnet and it was fun. People were stupid and drank Steves beer and then denyd it. Dumb bitches. this fat ass that kept taking his beer was hitting on rob all night. They went to leave and she tried to like ksis him.... wtf... I had my arms around his neck and shit and shes all like mwah. but whatever. Before we went to his cousins house i had to go home and then i went back over at like 6, I called him to say i was on the wya over and i guess he was fighting with his mom, he called me at like 640 and was crying and i went over and he answerd the door and was crying. His mom said that he was a failiur adn just like his father she was going to kick him out and hsut off his phone and all this stuff so he was really upset, and on top of that, he was losing chunks of hair. Cocoa gave him black people hair relaxor. His hair is bleached, adn dyed, so that was bad to begin with... and hes WHITE. you cant do that. Cocoa lost his hair too only the bleached part. I had to shave robbys head. Hes so upset about it. He had been growing his hair out for months and now its all gone. I kinda like it though, I think its hot.
Slept at his house saturday. :) I'm the happiestive ever been and he says the same. We went to the collectors guild with corey so they could play poker with techno masta P and all his friends. Robby won $40 hehe :) He kept telling me we could leave b/c i was sooo tired and hot nad shit but i made him stay nad play, then we went home, corey dropped us off and went back to play. We started watching the Ref and then cocoa came to the windo with a flashlight lol and we let him in and he watched the ref adn i slept. I woke up at the end of it. Rob looked like he was thinking about something and i ketp asking what was wrong till he told me. He said it was tht his mom said he was a faliuer. and I told him he wasnt. That he was a very strong person and nothing like his dad. that he was amazing and would be something. He smiled and said really. and i said yes.
he continued to look like osmething was bothering him. He siad there were so many things he wanted to tell me but was afraid to. I told him the hardest part was starting. Its the happiest hes been his whole life. He loves me to death and would do anything for me, and I know that. (It was now like 4 in the morning) He went on and on for a long time. I cried. nad the more he said the happier he got. He was so into what he was saying and he was so happy and he like jumped up onto his side so he could be looking down on me. He might have been crouching i dont even know. I cried b/c i have my period and im far more emotional than I should be. He tlaked about how he can see himself with me, and how he cares about what happens to him now, where before me, he coulnt give a shit if he was hit by a truck. but now, he has someything to live for. Someone to take care of. He wants to marry me and have kids. Before he couldnt give a shit aobut any of that. Nor could I. then I met him and I knew. I knew from the first time we spoke that I would be with him someday. its been like 5 months and not a single fight. Its amazing. He said it too. 5 months and no fighting. He doesnt ever want to fight b.c nothing is worth fighting about. and when something is he wants to argue and then he wants us to apologize right after and have make up sex and say i love u and tell the other they were right. He wants all of that with me. Its amazing how alike he and i think. all day I was thinking about marriage and him. How i wanted to tell him that someday i wnated to marry him nad then bam he finally came out and said it. He siad that if we cna make it 5 months without a fight that we have to be togheter. that if we're together in 2 years it will be amazing and that when the time comes he'll ask me, and it will be big. He said he knows were younge nad that i'm 18 and just out of highschool and he knows there is so much more out there in the world and he dosnet wnat to hold me back. that he knows there are thousands of other men and that i could find someonebetter if i looked... He was afraid hed scare me away, I told him he could never do that. He woke up the next morning and said, you're still here with a big cheesy grin i kissed him adn said forever.... I dont wnat to look. I want him. I want to be with Rob. I want to be with him for a very long time. I dont care if we get married. I dont care how long we last. I just care that I'm happy and head over heels in love with him. I knew from the start this relationship would be long. this has been the fastes 5 months of my life, and he siad the same. I wish i had a video camera or something for the conversation we had. it was amazing. I cried. No one has ever made me ahppy enough to cry. We sat and cuddled for a long time. we stared at eachother and smiled and kissed. The next morning when we got up at like 11 we hugged and stroked eachother. we went to breakfast with cocoa and we were more clingy then ever. i think that conversation has changed us. I think it brought us to a new level. I feel like i'm already married to him or osmething.
I'm so inlove I don;t know what to do. He just left... an hour and 13 minutes ago. and already i miss him. he didnt wnat to go. and I didnt want to let him. we have such a hard time saying good bye. this afternoon when i left at 445 to come home for supper, he said he didnt wnat me to go b/c hes afraid it will be the last time he sees me. I dont know what i'd do, if naything ever happend to him.