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Cam came over today. It was fun I guess... We went to my room and he played games and I looked at old pictures nad shit and he looked at them with me between his game and such. It was nice to just kind of sit with him and not really touch him or anything. After i got in bed with him and cuddled between him and milo and watched him play the game some more. I was falling asleep... im so tired... It was a good night. I know I'm happy with him and most everything we do but... do i really... reaaallly love him?
Its almost been a year now and its had its ups and downs like all relationships. there have been the happy times and th times i wished him dead but then wished that i never thought that because what would I do if it really happend? I'm sick of always being confused in relationships....
*yawn*...Im exhausted. Mr. Azevedo is like the greatest man ever. If he was my age I'd totaly date him. I'd love a husband/boyfriend like him. But god only knows how long we'd be alive lol Doesnt seem like he and his wife ever have a dull moment. I want to live more like him... simple and happy. Always active and persueing my dreams, haveing a new dream everyday and eventually fufilling it.
night <3
Ich liebe du even if i think we're rather distant at the moment... we're not as close and touchy as we were once...
Its almost been a year now and its had its ups and downs like all relationships. there have been the happy times and th times i wished him dead but then wished that i never thought that because what would I do if it really happend? I'm sick of always being confused in relationships....
*yawn*...Im exhausted. Mr. Azevedo is like the greatest man ever. If he was my age I'd totaly date him. I'd love a husband/boyfriend like him. But god only knows how long we'd be alive lol Doesnt seem like he and his wife ever have a dull moment. I want to live more like him... simple and happy. Always active and persueing my dreams, haveing a new dream everyday and eventually fufilling it.
night <3
Ich liebe du even if i think we're rather distant at the moment... we're not as close and touchy as we were once...