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Today in English class we started discussing the next like writting assignment thingy and its about a place or sumthing i dont even know, we're not doing it yet so yeah. But its about a place that you like or something like that and we had to start naming off random places as a class and everyones naming all these places and laughing and remonising about all the things that happend there adn the things they did and i just sat there... I realized that my whole childhood sucked. While everyone was having fun at these school functions i always sat there... miserably.. with my 2 friends... my 2 friends that i barley talk to... Everyone was talking about horzens for youth.. and i wanted to cry. 5th grade... 5th grade was a great time... good memories.. goor friends... now those friends are gone... one went to Texas.. the other only now lives up the street... but i talk to him once every 2 months maybe... and the other... well its every now and then wehn i decide that i want to call her... I guess i mean nothing to some poeple even though they claim i mean a lot more.... I've accpeted that but it hurts. It sucks to sit there and listen to a whole class talk about 1st grade up till now... and how they still all hang out and the things they do... i never had anyone.. and i still really dont. theres a few people i talk to and hang out with now nad then but i dont feel close to anyone... I dont think i can let myself. After everyone moved and blew me off and forgot aobut me i dont think i can ever get that close to anyone again. It sucks to sit here nad think of all those times and know that they wont ever happen again... people change and that i know... but i guess i never really will... its dinner time... bye