my life as it now.
a flash of my life just came to me as i look upon my ceiling fan , this fine saturday afternoon.
i have become content with my surroundings for once.
i mean i got stretch out and really take a deep breath and not felt rushed to get shit done once.i guess its this whole get up/get a job/have money/work your time/ put money in the bank / be responsible type thing. i always was opposed to it because i didnt want to be like that at all. but now eating healthly, being active and feeling good is making this alot enjoyable and easy to actually mold into something that i can control instead of being on the dog leash of life.but really now, is that really a part of growing and then finally being happy? or just giving in and just letting go.i guess it's like that part in fight club where they're in the car and he just lets go of the wheel.i want to .but to be honest what would be my vehicle? the j train. " ok the train will just go off the track here....umm.. err. no.. ok..
so i guess a car is a good metaphor for that "vehicle"to let go of. because a train is on a track and can't go off only if really really go to fast.that is something i don't think i m going to at all. i like the scenery and the stops along the way..so, i guess when you feel your proverbial car letting go.. don't jerk back to control it ..just see where it goes. and if you crash ok.. you crash. get out and pick up the pieces. if it steers you in a different direction , check it out or if not make a u turn.make sure you have music for the ride.
one breath in
one breath out
feels great huh?
i have become content with my surroundings for once.
i mean i got stretch out and really take a deep breath and not felt rushed to get shit done once.i guess its this whole get up/get a job/have money/work your time/ put money in the bank / be responsible type thing. i always was opposed to it because i didnt want to be like that at all. but now eating healthly, being active and feeling good is making this alot enjoyable and easy to actually mold into something that i can control instead of being on the dog leash of life.but really now, is that really a part of growing and then finally being happy? or just giving in and just letting go.i guess it's like that part in fight club where they're in the car and he just lets go of the wheel.i want to .but to be honest what would be my vehicle? the j train. " ok the train will just go off the track here....umm.. err. no.. ok..
so i guess a car is a good metaphor for that "vehicle"to let go of. because a train is on a track and can't go off only if really really go to fast.that is something i don't think i m going to at all. i like the scenery and the stops along the way..so, i guess when you feel your proverbial car letting go.. don't jerk back to control it ..just see where it goes. and if you crash ok.. you crash. get out and pick up the pieces. if it steers you in a different direction , check it out or if not make a u turn.make sure you have music for the ride.
one breath in
one breath out
feels great huh?