Just one of those nights
Tonight's just one of those times where something I'm doing or reading sparks way too much thought and self-reflection - Serious post time.
I was thinking about New Years resolutions and I since I rarely ever think about these sort of things, I thought I would try to come up with some good ones this year. This last year has been all about self-improvement - I thought I'd continue the trend. I got to thinking about how I act, and motives and reasons for things that I do/don't do, and I started wondering about how I act around people.
After a little thinking, I've sort of come to the conclusion that everything I do is forced, like I am going out of my way to respond a certain way to things. I'm also very all-or-nothing person that seems to have an affinity for the latter. I don't have any other reason to go further than that other than to just put to paper what I think about in my head for my own purposes. I feel like I over-think and then crash and burn before it ever comes to acting on those thoughts. It doesn't really matter what the content is, from school to friends to prospective relationships; whatever.
So I'm really curious: To the people who I actually interact with outside of the Internet -- how do you see me? Do I come off as overly-self concious as I think I do? Do I try too hard? Leave a comment - I don't care if it's anonymous, just do me a favor and humor me about it. At the very least, it will give me something to think think over and maybe come up with some legitimate resolutions for the upcoming year.
I was thinking about New Years resolutions and I since I rarely ever think about these sort of things, I thought I would try to come up with some good ones this year. This last year has been all about self-improvement - I thought I'd continue the trend. I got to thinking about how I act, and motives and reasons for things that I do/don't do, and I started wondering about how I act around people.
After a little thinking, I've sort of come to the conclusion that everything I do is forced, like I am going out of my way to respond a certain way to things. I'm also very all-or-nothing person that seems to have an affinity for the latter. I don't have any other reason to go further than that other than to just put to paper what I think about in my head for my own purposes. I feel like I over-think and then crash and burn before it ever comes to acting on those thoughts. It doesn't really matter what the content is, from school to friends to prospective relationships; whatever.
So I'm really curious: To the people who I actually interact with outside of the Internet -- how do you see me? Do I come off as overly-self concious as I think I do? Do I try too hard? Leave a comment - I don't care if it's anonymous, just do me a favor and humor me about it. At the very least, it will give me something to think think over and maybe come up with some legitimate resolutions for the upcoming year.