good
this whole being single thing has really worked out for me. not only did he occupy all of my time but also all of my thoughts when we were apart. and not in a good way, considering how much we fought. i was always worrying about us and could never focus on anything, like my homework, my future plans, or my friends here at emory. i have been totally focused on my work when i am doing it, instead of halfway. i played beer pong with my roommate and her boyfriend. i carried on a really good conversation with a guy in the writing center i've been meaning to get to know. i've been going out with liz and sibby. i finished my uga app and sent it in. i've made plans for bonnaroo and spring break and my post-undergrad life. people have commented that i am visibly happier. i had a long conversation with adam last night, who is really easy to talk to but i was always scared to because ben thought i was in love with him. and i'm really not THAT lonely. i won't say i'm not at all, that i don't miss the random texts and the "monkey!"s and snuggling. but it's only sometimes. most of the time i'm so busy or have someone i can call or see that i don't worry about it.
so this has been good. adam did point out though, i'm always happiest right when i emerge from a long relationship. and my therapist pointed out, why do you stay in these relationships so long if you know they're hurting you? sigh. things to be determined.
so this has been good. adam did point out though, i'm always happiest right when i emerge from a long relationship. and my therapist pointed out, why do you stay in these relationships so long if you know they're hurting you? sigh. things to be determined.