this familiar place..

[1000_lamps]

i don't get it.  what is wrong with me?  what did i ever do?   i'm sick of this.  i'm sick of being broken.  is it too much to ask?  they tell me that good things happen to good people, but they're full of shit.   i've tried to be something special.  i've tried to be somebody someone would want.  either i've failed miserably, or i'm taken for granted.  but how can someone fail so many times and still be called honorable?  nice guys finish last, but green day said nothing about finishing dead last.  maybe that position isn't reserved the nice, but rather the clueless.  my words spoken in vain, i'm so lost in this place i should know.

i hope you're happy.  i'm trying, but i don't feel like i'm so amazing anymore..

bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
sealed with lies through so many tears
lost from within, pursuing the end
i fight for the chance to be lied to again

(spoken)
you will never be strong enough
you will never be good enough
you were never conceived in love
you will not rise above

they'll never see
i'll never be
i'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
burning deep inside of me

but through my tears breaks a blinding light
birthing a dawn to this endless night
arms outstretched, awaiting me
an open embrace upon a bleeding tree

(spoken)
rest in me and i'll comfort you
i'd live and i'd die for you
abide in me and i vow to you
i will never forsake you