the art of having fun
haha that sounds so cheesy. another day at color me mine. listening to two grown women battle it out "my sponge effect is more intricate than yours"...pure excitement lemme tell myself. i talked to brittney today. she is in "catttallliinna" she said she bought me something nifty. im going to guess a purse. i helped her buy her presents for everyone else over the phone. she is so indecisive.
i think im in a rut. my work schedule doesnt allow me to go to womens bible study, and i had to miss last monday. i feel kind of far from God right now. my quiet times are dry. im getting in this "i dont care about anything" mood. its not good. i feel like im getting more easily influenced. swayed i guess. maybe its the people i have been spending more time with...or maybe its the people that i havent spent anytime with. or maybe its just me. no one to blame but myself. i dont know...that seems to be the phrase that comes out of my mouth the most these days. maybe its because ive realized that there is a lot i dont know. not just educationally...but just about me and my life. no direction anymore. no blue prints. no 5 yr plan. not sure what do do career-wise...church wise...im not sure who God has planned for me. maybe im just empty. and im trying to fill that with a person, or a career, and just "a plan"....instead of filling it with God. eesh customers. ok i lied no customers. i guess i just dont have much else to say on this subject...
i think im in a rut. my work schedule doesnt allow me to go to womens bible study, and i had to miss last monday. i feel kind of far from God right now. my quiet times are dry. im getting in this "i dont care about anything" mood. its not good. i feel like im getting more easily influenced. swayed i guess. maybe its the people i have been spending more time with...or maybe its the people that i havent spent anytime with. or maybe its just me. no one to blame but myself. i dont know...that seems to be the phrase that comes out of my mouth the most these days. maybe its because ive realized that there is a lot i dont know. not just educationally...but just about me and my life. no direction anymore. no blue prints. no 5 yr plan. not sure what do do career-wise...church wise...im not sure who God has planned for me. maybe im just empty. and im trying to fill that with a person, or a career, and just "a plan"....instead of filling it with God. eesh customers. ok i lied no customers. i guess i just dont have much else to say on this subject...