dang photobucket
all of my photobucket pictures have evaporated to who knows where..and now none of my old thumbnails work. soooo ummm not sure when ill get around t o fixin' 'em. i really did want to post dorky pictures up from my dad's lil bday shindig...will do at a later junction.
so i LOVE how megan gets me in these awkard predicaments....she'll understand some day..oh yeah you will.
o doamne, unde este?
sa nu ma lasi asa....
its really difficult for me to be grammatically correct in the romanian language..its quite a shame.
there are SO MANNYYY MOVIES out that i want to see!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh. when will i ever find the time!????
i went to my ro church this evening. enthralling as usual of course...please have your sarcasm radars handy folks. i dont know WHAT got into me earlier this year with dating dani, and then just ughhhhhh changing myself into this dull quiet person...that adheres to the romanian "dress codes" and complies with oldschool trads. its sickening. like tonight in church when he was singing/speaking/basically turning church into a one man show---i couldnt even LOOK at him. he repulses me now...and i dont know why. he hasnt done or said anything that would provoke such emtions...but i just dont understand why my friends didnt knock me upside the head!!! he was SOOOO not even my type. REVISION.;i dont really have a "type"..all i know...is that it was not him. sighhhh live and learn i suppose.
i feel like i havent spent any time with bri lately...pretty much because i havent...but usually when can go weeks without seeing eachother without feeling "distant"..but i really feel disconnected from her. see what relationships do to people?? what a pessimist i am! yes indeed.
God will totally provide. someday somewhere somehow someone. i just need to stop fussing over it. its not even that i want someone so bad right NOW. i just enjoy the comfort of knowing that there is someone out there suitable for me. my absolute fear is living a dry loveless life. but here i go..trying to fill my "hole" with something other than God. and i know better!!!! I want to breathe sleep taste feel Jesus!!! i dont want to only give him attention before meals, in time of crisis...when i swap lanes just in time to avoid being side-swiped...when that good christian song is playing somewhere in the backround...eeash. i know i could be so much deeper than i am right now. because i have been..and i remember the way i felt when i was quite vividly. i miss it. a few months ago i committed to spending one full hour in prayer and bible reading daily..and it went GREAT for a few weeks. i just felt SO at peace. at first i thought an entire hour would be ridiculously long and unattainable...but everytime literally zoomed by and felt like 10 minutes at most. i havent been consistent with that lately= i suck.
trying hard to fix it.
luv.luv.luv.
so i LOVE how megan gets me in these awkard predicaments....she'll understand some day..oh yeah you will.
o doamne, unde este?
sa nu ma lasi asa....
its really difficult for me to be grammatically correct in the romanian language..its quite a shame.
there are SO MANNYYY MOVIES out that i want to see!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh. when will i ever find the time!????
i went to my ro church this evening. enthralling as usual of course...please have your sarcasm radars handy folks. i dont know WHAT got into me earlier this year with dating dani, and then just ughhhhhh changing myself into this dull quiet person...that adheres to the romanian "dress codes" and complies with oldschool trads. its sickening. like tonight in church when he was singing/speaking/basically turning church into a one man show---i couldnt even LOOK at him. he repulses me now...and i dont know why. he hasnt done or said anything that would provoke such emtions...but i just dont understand why my friends didnt knock me upside the head!!! he was SOOOO not even my type. REVISION.;i dont really have a "type"..all i know...is that it was not him. sighhhh live and learn i suppose.
i feel like i havent spent any time with bri lately...pretty much because i havent...but usually when can go weeks without seeing eachother without feeling "distant"..but i really feel disconnected from her. see what relationships do to people?? what a pessimist i am! yes indeed.
God will totally provide. someday somewhere somehow someone. i just need to stop fussing over it. its not even that i want someone so bad right NOW. i just enjoy the comfort of knowing that there is someone out there suitable for me. my absolute fear is living a dry loveless life. but here i go..trying to fill my "hole" with something other than God. and i know better!!!! I want to breathe sleep taste feel Jesus!!! i dont want to only give him attention before meals, in time of crisis...when i swap lanes just in time to avoid being side-swiped...when that good christian song is playing somewhere in the backround...eeash. i know i could be so much deeper than i am right now. because i have been..and i remember the way i felt when i was quite vividly. i miss it. a few months ago i committed to spending one full hour in prayer and bible reading daily..and it went GREAT for a few weeks. i just felt SO at peace. at first i thought an entire hour would be ridiculously long and unattainable...but everytime literally zoomed by and felt like 10 minutes at most. i havent been consistent with that lately= i suck.
trying hard to fix it.
luv.luv.luv.