um, when two partially negative and positive charges invade eachothers space, its electrostatic?
SO its basically official. tara and i are gonna pay our deposits next week---YAY. im so nervous and excited...its gonna be WILD. hahaha not really...there are so many rules we have to follow its tragic. our main concern as of now is closet space...which is just PATHETIC.
so im having another nervous breakdown. tonight was the: where am i going? what am i doing? should i really be here? sort of shhhpiel. there are so many things that interest me (career path speaking)..that i just cant be definate about any. but i dont wanna be one of those girls that just hangs in there till she marries and then just links on to her hubby's lifestyle. i do want to determine things for myself....start a life of my own, and then just adapt it to that of my future spouses.
speaking of spouses...after reading megans novella on her prospects? made me think of how having mental "prospects" is SO retarded ((sorry meg)). why do people feel the need to list stuff like this?? i clearly remember the 9th grade "lists" "well ok..i really like A, but if A doesnt like me..i still have B...and i KNOW B likes me...but C is funnier than B..but not as cute"....ahaha what sheer cynicism. i am in no phase/stage right now. i just am. i dont want someone, and i dont not want someone. yes some TLC would be convenient..especially over the cold holiday season, but not a necessity. my hunting days are over. i mean really. i dont expect things to fall into my lap by no means, but i refuse to control and manipulate circumstances in hopes of finding who knows who from where. my main force of energy and sanity is God. and i couldnt ask for more ever. i shouldnt even have the spare time to ponder relationships..i should be totally absorbed in Him.
so i;m not even a HUGE number one fan fan...but they have been on constant rotation for the past few days. i CANT WAIT till tomorrow!!!! Imogen Heaps CD comes out in the US. YYEssss. i have waiting for this for just about ever.
oh and PS. i HATE surprises that i dont ask for. and brianna in concocting something for me...i sense it....
and i love love love love holly, and am so excited about this "new door" that is slowly but surely opening up for her right now. people will flip. it will be amazing. yet divinely designated i think. :) :)
so im having another nervous breakdown. tonight was the: where am i going? what am i doing? should i really be here? sort of shhhpiel. there are so many things that interest me (career path speaking)..that i just cant be definate about any. but i dont wanna be one of those girls that just hangs in there till she marries and then just links on to her hubby's lifestyle. i do want to determine things for myself....start a life of my own, and then just adapt it to that of my future spouses.
speaking of spouses...after reading megans novella on her prospects? made me think of how having mental "prospects" is SO retarded ((sorry meg)). why do people feel the need to list stuff like this?? i clearly remember the 9th grade "lists" "well ok..i really like A, but if A doesnt like me..i still have B...and i KNOW B likes me...but C is funnier than B..but not as cute"....ahaha what sheer cynicism. i am in no phase/stage right now. i just am. i dont want someone, and i dont not want someone. yes some TLC would be convenient..especially over the cold holiday season, but not a necessity. my hunting days are over. i mean really. i dont expect things to fall into my lap by no means, but i refuse to control and manipulate circumstances in hopes of finding who knows who from where. my main force of energy and sanity is God. and i couldnt ask for more ever. i shouldnt even have the spare time to ponder relationships..i should be totally absorbed in Him.
so i;m not even a HUGE number one fan fan...but they have been on constant rotation for the past few days. i CANT WAIT till tomorrow!!!! Imogen Heaps CD comes out in the US. YYEssss. i have waiting for this for just about ever.
oh and PS. i HATE surprises that i dont ask for. and brianna in concocting something for me...i sense it....
and i love love love love holly, and am so excited about this "new door" that is slowly but surely opening up for her right now. people will flip. it will be amazing. yet divinely designated i think. :) :)