the unofficial scapegoat
I deleted my myspace..and live journal awaits me with outstretched arms :)
as i was reviewing past entries..i couldnt resist deleting 2 or 3 due to the ridiculousness of them. I wanted to delete everything..start from scratch..but lately i realized that maybe taking back my own words is not such a good thing.....
mini recap of basically this whole year--
i have gained and lost amazing friends.
my sister is now married and marius is now my brother in law.
i have a new car.
i'm changing majors..again.
ive done a gigantic amount of reading.
i went to romania.
i want to go to africa.
our pool got done..and we rarely use it.
i have become a pro runner. haaa i wish.
i spent way too much money on crap.
i am addicted to my ipod.
i painted 4 breath taking images, and trashed them.
i still babysit the most amazing girls ever.
i've been alone since may.
i wrote 37 songs in the last 3 months.
i started writing a book that i dont think i will ever finish.
i became a member of the burning hearts society.
i'm first aid certified?
i work at third place.
i got really involved at a ro church, and am now taking 3 steps back from that whole world.
i left evergreen.
i started going to c-group.
i betrayed myself.
there is more. but that is all.
today was better than yeserday, and yesterday was better than the day before. i havent been going to classes...and im getting sick. Lindsay Pidgeons grandpa died and the funeral was today...her and i have gotten pretty close this last semester. i want her to come to africa with me. i helped brianna purchase her halloween costume today, its SO scandy. i committed to babysitting all night on oct 29th like 3 weeks ago, which means i cant go to anyones halloween party, and therefore did not invest in a costume.
Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
I posted that on here once before last year some time. I used to think that God would give me all of my foolish desires..like that boy to like me, or those new jeans, or that great job...or my parents to let me go to that all nighter...whatever. But its not about that in the slightest. Once we fully delight in the Lord, our desires are shaped differently. They no longer are petty wordly desires...we begin to desire God more. To be closer to Him. Desire His word. His spirit. His will.
That is what I want to starve for.
Life is just so dang fickle. Makes me smile.
as i was reviewing past entries..i couldnt resist deleting 2 or 3 due to the ridiculousness of them. I wanted to delete everything..start from scratch..but lately i realized that maybe taking back my own words is not such a good thing.....
mini recap of basically this whole year--
i have gained and lost amazing friends.
my sister is now married and marius is now my brother in law.
i have a new car.
i'm changing majors..again.
ive done a gigantic amount of reading.
i went to romania.
i want to go to africa.
our pool got done..and we rarely use it.
i have become a pro runner. haaa i wish.
i spent way too much money on crap.
i am addicted to my ipod.
i painted 4 breath taking images, and trashed them.
i still babysit the most amazing girls ever.
i've been alone since may.
i wrote 37 songs in the last 3 months.
i started writing a book that i dont think i will ever finish.
i became a member of the burning hearts society.
i'm first aid certified?
i work at third place.
i got really involved at a ro church, and am now taking 3 steps back from that whole world.
i left evergreen.
i started going to c-group.
i betrayed myself.
there is more. but that is all.
today was better than yeserday, and yesterday was better than the day before. i havent been going to classes...and im getting sick. Lindsay Pidgeons grandpa died and the funeral was today...her and i have gotten pretty close this last semester. i want her to come to africa with me. i helped brianna purchase her halloween costume today, its SO scandy. i committed to babysitting all night on oct 29th like 3 weeks ago, which means i cant go to anyones halloween party, and therefore did not invest in a costume.
Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
I posted that on here once before last year some time. I used to think that God would give me all of my foolish desires..like that boy to like me, or those new jeans, or that great job...or my parents to let me go to that all nighter...whatever. But its not about that in the slightest. Once we fully delight in the Lord, our desires are shaped differently. They no longer are petty wordly desires...we begin to desire God more. To be closer to Him. Desire His word. His spirit. His will.
That is what I want to starve for.
Life is just so dang fickle. Makes me smile.