that's not what i'm used to...
joe's Awesome Fairy really came through for me this weekend. or atleast did enough good to ease my mind. Thank you Joe, thank you Awesome Fairy.
this weekend was fucking INSANE. i had fun for the most part though. went to georgia with becca, jason madrigal, and some other folks for her birthday(we ate at maple street mansion) then came back to jason's apartment in j'ville,and commenced becoming drunk.
i didn't want to get drunk, but jason and becca who were already pretty wasted when i got there, MORE THAN insisted that i become as wasted as they were. i had to work at 9am...so i wasn't happy about it. well, then i was drunk, and didn't care.
sidenote: katie morris and nick britton broke up, and katie moved in with jason madrigal.we hung out for the most aprt that night.
at midnight we headed over to soem austalian guy named kieran's house to partake in the college frat party. there were alot of peopel there,a nd kieran kept hitting on me, telling me that my hair 'looked all glowy in the streetlight' and even drunk, i was like'what the fuick are you talking about?' then i guess i gave him my phone #(ok...he was REALLY hot...that was all he had going for him.)because he called me the next night...eh...more on that later...
i remember smoking weed out of a beer can, and then licking all of it off the can, and it tasting like sausage. i remember being groped and SUCH alot by jason,dancing, trying to microwave a frozen hot dog, and other things i don't wanna talk about. i tried my best to behave. i did....ok. better than normal. i held back alot from fun stuff, because i'm dating someone. i regret that,slightly. it's actually a really good thing that i held back, but at the same time i really don't want to feel like i've gotta hold back for anyone anymore. in fact, i was downright pissed off last night thinking about it. i was all'i don't owe him anything!' and 'he has no claim over me!"...so yeah.
but whatever. i'm just ranting.
so yeah, that night was interesting. i think i had fun though. now that i'm over my hangover--yeah, i didn't make it to work the next day. well, i did, but i didn't stay long---things seem like they were fun. and the navy called me before i went out, and i told him i was goign to a party but we should hang out saturday night. he said he thought that was'a brilliant idea' and told me to stop by after the party. so i decided he likes me again. i didn't stop by though, obviously. that would have been the quickest way to make him not like me...all drunk and such.
the next night kerri and i hung out a bunch, and it was fun as crap. we got copies of the photos i took made at wal-mart, and ate at pizza hut in j'ville. i liekd hanging out with kerri alot. we need to hang out again, with megan too and WITH NO BOYS!! stupid boys! everywhere! all the time! anyway!
after that i went over to the navy's house.....eeee...and stayed the night. yeah, i had a really bad hangover from the day before, but i didn't care. i was sooo tired, but we didn't officially go to sleep, until around 8am. we slept in until around 3 or 4pm, then went to eat at huddle house, then he went to work and i went home. it was...nice. :)
but i dunno. i'm feeling weird again. all restless and such. like him, yeah, but don't want some stupid bullshit overly dramatic relationship...and this is far from that, but i'm terrified of it becoming one. and like i said earlier, i just don't wanna feel like i'm holding back. i wanna do whatebver i want whenever i want with who ever i want, and ok, so i never feel like doing that stuff, not even the other night, but i don't like having a reason other than my own free will to not want to do something, ya know? eeeeh. see, i can't take it. i go back and forth. as usual i don't know what i want, but i feel like running away from all of this. and maybe i will soon. my horoscope was creepy today...here it is:
Freedom, independence and doing your own thing. That's the deal now -- the only one you'll be willing to make, at least. So if you're beginning to feel like a prisoner, don't worry about hurting their feelings. Run.
haha...oh, i hate irony. but i'm stubborn, and really curious. it's not so easy for me to walk away from things...especially when there is awesome making out and STUFF involved...holy shit yeah. but i dunno. we'll see. he actually asked me out on a date for wednesday! he wanted to go see the aviator, but it isn't showing, so i figure we'll go see something else. that'd be cool. maybe we'll actually have a conversation without making out. i doubt it. and i don't care either. blah. i hate stupid shit, like feelings.
i'm gonna go do something constructive, like sleep.
this weekend was fucking INSANE. i had fun for the most part though. went to georgia with becca, jason madrigal, and some other folks for her birthday(we ate at maple street mansion) then came back to jason's apartment in j'ville,and commenced becoming drunk.
i didn't want to get drunk, but jason and becca who were already pretty wasted when i got there, MORE THAN insisted that i become as wasted as they were. i had to work at 9am...so i wasn't happy about it. well, then i was drunk, and didn't care.
sidenote: katie morris and nick britton broke up, and katie moved in with jason madrigal.we hung out for the most aprt that night.
at midnight we headed over to soem austalian guy named kieran's house to partake in the college frat party. there were alot of peopel there,a nd kieran kept hitting on me, telling me that my hair 'looked all glowy in the streetlight' and even drunk, i was like'what the fuick are you talking about?' then i guess i gave him my phone #(ok...he was REALLY hot...that was all he had going for him.)because he called me the next night...eh...more on that later...
i remember smoking weed out of a beer can, and then licking all of it off the can, and it tasting like sausage. i remember being groped and SUCH alot by jason,dancing, trying to microwave a frozen hot dog, and other things i don't wanna talk about. i tried my best to behave. i did....ok. better than normal. i held back alot from fun stuff, because i'm dating someone. i regret that,slightly. it's actually a really good thing that i held back, but at the same time i really don't want to feel like i've gotta hold back for anyone anymore. in fact, i was downright pissed off last night thinking about it. i was all'i don't owe him anything!' and 'he has no claim over me!"...so yeah.
but whatever. i'm just ranting.
so yeah, that night was interesting. i think i had fun though. now that i'm over my hangover--yeah, i didn't make it to work the next day. well, i did, but i didn't stay long---things seem like they were fun. and the navy called me before i went out, and i told him i was goign to a party but we should hang out saturday night. he said he thought that was'a brilliant idea' and told me to stop by after the party. so i decided he likes me again. i didn't stop by though, obviously. that would have been the quickest way to make him not like me...all drunk and such.
the next night kerri and i hung out a bunch, and it was fun as crap. we got copies of the photos i took made at wal-mart, and ate at pizza hut in j'ville. i liekd hanging out with kerri alot. we need to hang out again, with megan too and WITH NO BOYS!! stupid boys! everywhere! all the time! anyway!
after that i went over to the navy's house.....eeee...and stayed the night. yeah, i had a really bad hangover from the day before, but i didn't care. i was sooo tired, but we didn't officially go to sleep, until around 8am. we slept in until around 3 or 4pm, then went to eat at huddle house, then he went to work and i went home. it was...nice. :)
but i dunno. i'm feeling weird again. all restless and such. like him, yeah, but don't want some stupid bullshit overly dramatic relationship...and this is far from that, but i'm terrified of it becoming one. and like i said earlier, i just don't wanna feel like i'm holding back. i wanna do whatebver i want whenever i want with who ever i want, and ok, so i never feel like doing that stuff, not even the other night, but i don't like having a reason other than my own free will to not want to do something, ya know? eeeeh. see, i can't take it. i go back and forth. as usual i don't know what i want, but i feel like running away from all of this. and maybe i will soon. my horoscope was creepy today...here it is:
Freedom, independence and doing your own thing. That's the deal now -- the only one you'll be willing to make, at least. So if you're beginning to feel like a prisoner, don't worry about hurting their feelings. Run.
haha...oh, i hate irony. but i'm stubborn, and really curious. it's not so easy for me to walk away from things...especially when there is awesome making out and STUFF involved...holy shit yeah. but i dunno. we'll see. he actually asked me out on a date for wednesday! he wanted to go see the aviator, but it isn't showing, so i figure we'll go see something else. that'd be cool. maybe we'll actually have a conversation without making out. i doubt it. and i don't care either. blah. i hate stupid shit, like feelings.
i'm gonna go do something constructive, like sleep.