please dont play with me, my paper heart may bleed.
i'm emily, you will never completly understand me, i usually hide my feelings, im afraid of opening up to someone, mostly because im scared of getting hurt, i tend to get jealous to easily, and i have a hard time saying no when someone ask me for a favor, i let things build up inside of me and then at some point i always let it out, my feelings get hurt easily, i tend to get myself in bad situations, and im not very good at gettin myself out of them, i can never stay mad at someone, i always give in at some point, so i guess you could say im a pushover, i hate that about myself, i love my friends, they are good to me, and i dont deserve it, i tend to push people away when they are just tryin to help, i always think that my opinions are right, and i have a hard time accepting others opinions, the only thing i really want is to be happy, and alot of the times i make myself think im happier then i really am, actually i tend to make myself think alot of things, and that messes alot of things up, im very outgoing and loud, but i can be quite sometimes, and people mistake it for bitchyness, i'm afraid of growing up and my life turning out bad, actually im afraid of growing up in general, the truth is as bad as i think things are sometimes, there never as bad as they seem, i don't learn from many of my mistakes, it usually takes something really bad to open my eyes to something, i'm just a mess, i love the rain, something about it makes me so happy, suprises make me happy, but i hate having to wait for them, im to impatient, i love laughing for no reason, i'm a people person, and im scared to be alone, i love complements, i can be stupid sometimes, but its ok because it makes people laugh, and seeing people laugh makes me happy, because i know that for just one second that they are happy. I have done things in my past that im not proud of, but i have no regrets, because all my mistakes have made me who i am today, and even though sometimes im not proud of who i am, i wouldnt want to be any other way, i dont like people being mad at me, and i love cheering people up, even if im not happy myself, im not always a good friend, but i try my best, im not a bad person i just get a little side tracked sometimes, but i think we all do at some point.