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It really sucks that I hate the only person that ever understood me and I never want to talk to him again.
If I ever did anyway it would ruin everything I have for good.
Whatever.
It also sucks that I can never say the things I want to say to people because any bit of conflict or confrontation gives me so much fucking anxiety.
So in turn I end up just sitting there in silence when I'm really having a meltdown in my head.
I'm so happy I have Pat, because I can actually say anything I want to him and talk to him about whatever and it's always okay.
I love him so much, I kinda really do hope we do actually can move in together soon. I just need to get a job.
I just can't handle anyone anymore really, the stupid little things that people say and do make me so mad and I feel like I'm going to start just freaking out when it happens.
I don't even knowwww. I feel like I'm either completely insane or everyone else is. I'm sure the odds are more against me. Oh well.
If I ever did anyway it would ruin everything I have for good.
Whatever.
It also sucks that I can never say the things I want to say to people because any bit of conflict or confrontation gives me so much fucking anxiety.
So in turn I end up just sitting there in silence when I'm really having a meltdown in my head.
I'm so happy I have Pat, because I can actually say anything I want to him and talk to him about whatever and it's always okay.
I love him so much, I kinda really do hope we do actually can move in together soon. I just need to get a job.
I just can't handle anyone anymore really, the stupid little things that people say and do make me so mad and I feel like I'm going to start just freaking out when it happens.
I don't even knowwww. I feel like I'm either completely insane or everyone else is. I'm sure the odds are more against me. Oh well.