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so it's 2:30 and of course i'm up. i can't sleep and it's driving me crazyyy. i've been like this for the past couple weeks. the other night i didn't fall asleep til about 6 in the morning, and then slept til almost 6 the net night. i have problems. ha. i don't wanna be here right now. i wanna be home in my own bed. for once i actually want to be home, this is weird. i can't get him out of my fucking head which is also driving me crazy. sometimes i really can't even come up with a good reason why i still like him, there might not be one. but i do and i can't help it. it's really annoying at times actually. cause i'm pretty sure it'll get me nowhere and we're never gonna be together again. but whateverrrr.i miss hannah. and my sister. but i'll see them both this weekend so that's good. really need to stop eating so much. that's one thing i hate about smoking, i eat soo fucking much. it's gross. i'm starting to hate food. i don't know. i've realize how much my self-esteem has gone don lately. like there's really not much i like about myself, but i'm kinda okay with thatt? i really don't even know. i don't understand myself. or anything else.