StiFfEn uP thAt uPpEr LiP LiTtLe LaDy *
but no more worries rest your head and go to sleep
maybe one day we`ll wake up and this will all just be a dream.
ugh. i don`t feel like writing alot because i`m kinda tired and its almost 12. but anyways.. tonight`s been kinda bleh. nametwin came over which was awesome i miss her cause we haven`t really hung out in a while. we had fun. good times nametwin. jesus runnin outa the car lol. "fullhouse bangs" and some other things.. camille`s bday present.. lol but yeah.. so after she left i just kinda chilled. fixed my hair for tomorrow so i won`t run as late in the morning.. and then got on the computer to download music.. downloaded like every eminem song ever made lol. i love him yo. his songs make me think. i can`t wait til his new cd comes out, november 15th i think. anyways. like i said i downloaded a million songs and i`m listening to all of them. makes me think even more about everything like i`ve been doing lately. i`ve been in the worst mood for a couple weeks now. i mean don`t get me wrong i`ve had fun every now and then, its not like i cry 24/7 and stuff. its just that everything has been getting to me and everyone`s been pissing me off.. gotten into arguments with my parents, friends and stuff. and i don`t know i guess sometimes it just feels like i have a permanent frown on my face, until someone sees me lookin upset and asks what`s wrong and i say "nothin :-)".. most of the time i`m lying when i say it..
"i can see you`re sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
i can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
cause you`re scared.."
i need something ( or someone ) to turn that all around.. but it`s whatever i just gotta deal it`s not like i have such a bad life anyway and i don`t like to be the one to complain so ima just stop now. it`s all good in the hood :-) lol..
by the way. homecoming was pretty tight. boring in the beginning, fun as hell in the end. everyone looked so awesome. the hummer limo was amazing yo. so pimp.. too crunk in tht bitch.. lol i love yall madd memories.. chapz congratulations on winning lady.. "bout that time ay chapz?" "right-o".. lol.. and then afterwards.. jasmine and tracy if only i could remember half the inside jokes from tht night lmao. i love yall so much bff.. <3
this week has been pretty craZy.. my aunt bonnie from jersey came and visited but i didn`t get to see her that much cause i was out like every night til late lol. i had step performance the first night she was here and i was out late then. and the next night she was out with my dad.. that night claudio came over and i was the first to see his hair cut! haha i`m special. aw he looks so cute with the short hair! but i miss his curls though. he`s so weird lol we just randomly did some science experiment in my kitchen. vinegar and baking soda in this lil glass thing. lol strange. then we went to his house and chilled for a lil. he got to take the car out and take me home. HOW KOOL lol.. i love tht kid. he always makes my bad days turn out better.
but i don`t feel like writing anymore and i needa get my rest so ima go. i`m trying to write in here more often so lets hope i update again tomorrow. goodnight all. xox `1
and you still make me feel like i don`t matter..
..i don`t..
* little did you know, that dance ; made my life *