the clouds rain pain
today has been really shitty! i am in such a bad mood because of it too.
i got up this morning all excited that i was gunna go shopping with karina and so she calls me at 9ish and says she'll call me when her mom is on her way to get me. so i get all ready and sit and wait. she said it would be around 12:30. at like 1ish karina calls and says we cant go becuase her mom has a hang over and doesn't wanna go anywhere. i got really mad. i'm not mad at karina.
i'm frustrated with people in general. everytime they say we are gunna do something, 9 out of 10 times i get a bad phone call saying we can't. i wish people had time for each other. i wish life was fun.
so well karina was sad too and she's pissed at her mom cuz her mom chewed her out too. i feel so shitty. i wish we could have done something. she asked if we could go next weekend and i really don't know cuz it's my weekend at my dads. he doesn't really let me do much. i might talk him into it though.
so after i got off the phone with karina, i went into the bathroom and washed my makeup off and stared in the mirror for a half an hour or so then put my hair up. i put some pajamas on and started to pack my room for our move. i am finished packing everything. i wanna move so bad.
right now, i wish i could drive. i would drive out to the country and just drive for hours. roll down my window and feel the wind and listen to fall out boy. just calm down and enjoy the day.