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Oh Lord.....I need to say something out loud. I need to be heard. Please let someone listen.
I'm feeling alone right now. I'm feeeling truly on my own in the challenging world of high school. Joe lives so far away. I really have no one here. No one of my own or to be close with. I hope that I make it through this last year and a half and things get better in college. I hope that I can make it on my own and just be there for myself. Joe listens. He's really all I've got. I know I sound selfish but I just want a friend that can be my best friend and no one elses. Everyone has one. Everyone that is but me. I'm selfish. I know. I don't share my friends well. I'm sorry for that. Maybe things will be ok on my own. Maybe I'll make it with the few friends I do have. Just maybe.
Mainly what I'm saying here is that I need strength. A reason to pull through. I need a light at the end of the tunnel. Let college be my light. I want this last year and a half to be some of the best of my life. Like it's suppose to be. Like how it is in Sixteen and Breakfast Club and all those great 80's movies. I want that.
A toast to making it better. To some of the best years of our lives. We hope.