Some alone time
After the whole everything in town is turned into a musical from broadway type of thing, I tried to avoid everyone. I needed some alone time for how long? I wasn't even sure on that one myself. Things just became even more complicated after what had happened. And where would I go for some alone time? There weren't exactly alot of places that I could think of. The best option would be my room and just lock it that way nobody would come in. Not that I didn't want anyone to see me, I just needed to be alone.
I got back to the house and got Dawn into bed. I told the rest of the gang I was going to bed. God I could barely look at them and they couldn't bare to look at me either. Things were such as mess right now and I had to be the one to be the clean up crew. Which I didn't even know if I had the drive to be the person. I knew I'd have to face them and talk about this sooner or later. I'm just hoping for the later route. I said my goodnights, went upstairs. I stopped at Dawn's room and opened the door. I went and sat next to her stroking her hair and making sure she was ok. After sitting there for awhile I got up and closed the door quietly behind me.
I walked to my room and closed the door. Taking off my jacket and hanging it up, I went over to my bed and just sat there, in the dark. I had so many thoughts in my head that I couldn't make sense of them all. Well first of all I kissed Spike! I kissed Spike? Oh god what was I thinking kissing Spike? That was just gross, Spike lips, lips of spike! I made sure I washed my mouth out well tonight. And no one will find out about that and if Spike wants to open his mouth to anyone about it, he'll have to answer to Mr. Pointy. I'll have to go make sure he doesn't say anything to anyone tomorrow. I just couldn't shake the feeling about what it was. Was it real or was it just from the spell? You know the whole big finally kiss? I don't think I loved Spike, no I didn't. It was the spell because nothing else would have driven me to kiss him.
And then there were my friends. They knew. Now they knew what I had been through and where I was. Not only that but everything I was feeling. Those songs let out secrets I didn't want them to know. Like I was really in heaven and they took me out of a place that I was happy in. And how I've been dealing with it all these days. They knew things now that complicated things. I wanted to wait and see if I could re-adjust again and be able to feel alive again that way I wouldn't have had to hide it anymore. But again theories like that never turn out. I layed down on my bed continuing to think about what I should do. The best thing would be to try and expalin the best I could but it wasn't going to be easy.
I got back to the house and got Dawn into bed. I told the rest of the gang I was going to bed. God I could barely look at them and they couldn't bare to look at me either. Things were such as mess right now and I had to be the one to be the clean up crew. Which I didn't even know if I had the drive to be the person. I knew I'd have to face them and talk about this sooner or later. I'm just hoping for the later route. I said my goodnights, went upstairs. I stopped at Dawn's room and opened the door. I went and sat next to her stroking her hair and making sure she was ok. After sitting there for awhile I got up and closed the door quietly behind me.
I walked to my room and closed the door. Taking off my jacket and hanging it up, I went over to my bed and just sat there, in the dark. I had so many thoughts in my head that I couldn't make sense of them all. Well first of all I kissed Spike! I kissed Spike? Oh god what was I thinking kissing Spike? That was just gross, Spike lips, lips of spike! I made sure I washed my mouth out well tonight. And no one will find out about that and if Spike wants to open his mouth to anyone about it, he'll have to answer to Mr. Pointy. I'll have to go make sure he doesn't say anything to anyone tomorrow. I just couldn't shake the feeling about what it was. Was it real or was it just from the spell? You know the whole big finally kiss? I don't think I loved Spike, no I didn't. It was the spell because nothing else would have driven me to kiss him.
And then there were my friends. They knew. Now they knew what I had been through and where I was. Not only that but everything I was feeling. Those songs let out secrets I didn't want them to know. Like I was really in heaven and they took me out of a place that I was happy in. And how I've been dealing with it all these days. They knew things now that complicated things. I wanted to wait and see if I could re-adjust again and be able to feel alive again that way I wouldn't have had to hide it anymore. But again theories like that never turn out. I layed down on my bed continuing to think about what I should do. The best thing would be to try and expalin the best I could but it wasn't going to be easy.