Single
Well, I thought I'd update today since it's my first time since being single. It really dawned on me after I changed my personal info on Myspace from n a relationship to single. Wow, anyway, JoAnn told me today that it was probably best that we ended it since we hardly ever see eachother and she never has any time between school and work. Oh well, I probably wouldn't have much time either with baseball everyday afterschool, plus it looks like part of Saturdays are going to be taken too :( This all leads into the other thing I was going to talk about. Well, as you know, there's McKayla, the new girl from Texas. Now it looks as though there's another Freshman girl, from Texas. I believe her name is Meridith or something like that. Look, they both start with M too, haah. Anyway, yeah, I haven't met her yet, but Kat makes it sound like she's really cool (other than the whole prep part - the kind who when she speaks, every other word is "like") hahahaha. No, I'm not going to be mean cause my sister is like that sometimes and I HAVEN'T EVEN MET HER YET! Hrmm, what else. Uhh, yeah, we've been planning our weekend out already. WHat sucks is that we have scrimages Saturday morning, meaning everything has to be after that. We're definitely going to a movie or hanging out Friday night. I want to make the movie so bad, so, that'll be maybe part of Saturday and then Sunday. Kat sounds like she's really gonna sneak into the Beechmont Pool and take a swim at night. First of all, that's crazy, not just because it's gonna be freezing cold, but also because, have you seen the color of that water? Yuck, I'll do it if she does, but I don't want to get sick, haha. Call me a sissy, but I'd be more into swimming in it if it wasn't GREEN! lol, we'll see what happens with that. GOsh, I have a buttload of Biology to get done tonight, yet I'm sitting here writing this, talking to people, and being bored, oooh well......guess I don't really care. Let's see, what else is there to talk about. Uhh, Mary and I had a huge fight, actually, I kinda just took it all, cause I don't like fighting with people that I still have feelings for and know that I was once really good friends with. Not much to say other than that she put me down by calling me stuff such as selfish and conceited, but oh well. Pretty good, she's the only good friend I think I've ever lost. I'll get over it. I'm trying to decide what I want to do as far as a relationship is concerned. Right now I think I'm only interested in one girl, off the top of my head, well, two, but one is already taken. THey're an awesome couple. As for the other, I don't know, I guess I could say I'm scared of relationships right now, after knowing what happened with Mary. It all shot off and never came back after I told her I had feelings for her. I don't want that to be the same with anyone else. JoAnn and I look like we're going to still be really really good friends, which is more than I could have hoped for. I'm not going to say who it is I'm interested in, I just have to think about it and you can ask if you want. I may tell you then, but not now.....nobody probably really cares anyway. Dad's out of town in Cincinatti, Mimi and Papa are in the Arizona/Mexico area, Hannah's at college, and mom's continually out working, so it's just me and JonJon right now. I kida like it quiet, bit I love it more when I have all the family around. Have you ever thought about how many times in a day that you say "I"? After the whole thing with Mary, I stop and think sometimes, not just about that I say it so much, but also about how others may feel. I don't want to them to feel as though they don't have a say, or that their work and their participation didn't count just because I came out ontop or something. See it, I said it again. It's something we can't stop. Some people may say that they're selfish because all they do is talk about themselves. Yet, has anyone ever thought that maybe the only reason they do it is because they haven't been sure of themselves, and soon they feel loved and know that they're starting to fit in with everyone. THen, they're overjoyed and just can't stop thinking about the things that others like about them, and they have to tell everyone. Maybe that's one reason people are selfish when it comes to putting out their strengths or values. Just a few thoughts that I had floating, hopefully someone who reads this will atleast understand it, if not agree with it too. My question that I can't answer is, why do I continue to ponder over the whole situation, especially after she tried so hard to hurt me, call me such evil things. I should just be done with her, not be interested, give her the spliter of love that she gave me (nothing). That's it I guess......alot of feelings just in that. Help me out if you can :o)
-Daniel
-Daniel