Siiiiiick
So I'm off at this magical field station. There are bugs galore, friendly people, kayaks. . .all sorts of reasons to be happy, but I'm still feeling kind of depressed.
It's probably because I've been holed up all day and feel bad about it. But I'm sick, and it doesn't feel good to be outside right now. Which is depressing because I want to be outside. but standing and being chilly and moving just. . .don't feel good!
And I'm alone. Which would normally be fine but I'm already sad to be inside and there's nothing to keep my attention focused on something positive. The friends I've made here are outside (of course) and Sam is far, far away (and busy, at that). I don't even have phone reception to call my mom or something dumb like that.
I don't know. Just crying a bit. I was really happy yesterday (there is seriously so much to be happy about), and I'm sure I will be again as soon as my body gets over this stupid head-cold. It just sucks that this is happening on my last weekend here. I want to be happy again sooooooo bad, but right now I just want to go home.
It's probably because I've been holed up all day and feel bad about it. But I'm sick, and it doesn't feel good to be outside right now. Which is depressing because I want to be outside. but standing and being chilly and moving just. . .don't feel good!
And I'm alone. Which would normally be fine but I'm already sad to be inside and there's nothing to keep my attention focused on something positive. The friends I've made here are outside (of course) and Sam is far, far away (and busy, at that). I don't even have phone reception to call my mom or something dumb like that.
I don't know. Just crying a bit. I was really happy yesterday (there is seriously so much to be happy about), and I'm sure I will be again as soon as my body gets over this stupid head-cold. It just sucks that this is happening on my last weekend here. I want to be happy again sooooooo bad, but right now I just want to go home.