*I've forgotten what it feels like*to feel normal*to be normal*

[0silentxscream0]

today was great, yesterday was ok.

yesterday.
it was kates 17th birthay!! she wanted to go to fridays to get dinner with all her friends, but when she talked to bri he didnt even remember it was her birthday. he didnt say happy birthday or anything except how he hurt his food acting like a fucking jackass. so finally he saw the calendar and called

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[xforgettmynamex]

hey, here is two i've written the first one i wrote like a longggg time ago and I'm still with the same guy (you will see what im talking about after you read it.) so yea hope you enjoi!
Your words are just like
A double sided razorblade
They hurt any way you look at them
I'm the monster that they made

Take all the hurtful things you can say
And throw them all my way
I can take it
If not don't worry I'll fake it

There's no reason to try and save
Save me from the pain
I'll take it all to my grave
Let your words be the nails in my coffin

Don't worry about flowers
They'll all die too
Just like I did
I died for you

Did you say everything you wanted
Or is their more to spew
Let it flow darling
Cuz I still love you

So I guess I am that desperate
I'll take all this shit
For a chance to date
My one true love

Or so I think
I feel wasted
And I havent had a drop to drink
I'm too confused

When I told you this was killing me
I wasnt joking
Atleast we both can agree
That I'm the one that does it

I'm the one that makes the words form
In your troubled head
And leave your mouth
I make the words that make me dead
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Never knew you could die
From broken heart
Never knew we were destined to fail
from the start
Laying next to my bed again
Dont have the strength to get into it
I'll never lift my head again
Because I've been looking down the barrel of a gun
I end my life
With a bang
this could have been prevented, if only you were near
If you had returned my calls
and my successes
are out numbered by my falls
so whats the point
no one wants me
and everyone knew
this was my destiny
3 months ago you could have told
everyone this was the way i'd die
but we pretended everything was alright
we decieded to lie
Wear the guilt like a cape
a super human
this is my great escape
My blood will spill like the milk
but no one will cry over it
just leave it there for a while
and then try and forget
she was only a girl
she was my only mistake
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so yea these arent anywhere near as good as yours but yea i thought you might like them..lemme know..oh and i can take brutal honesty..i promise!lol! byee

[0silentxscream0]

wow! thouse were really good! you write very well. i like them very much!! i relate to them alot and i understand how you felt. when you said "Never knew you could die
From broken heart
Never knew we were destined to fail
from the start" i felt that way for the longest time, i still do. i love it!!! good job! ::claps::

[xforgettmynamex]

lol thanks, I feel bad for feeling this way, I LOVE my boyfriend but yea I get in these moods and yea stuff like that gets written, so yea it's crazy cuz I never thought I would write stuff like that and definately not when I was 14, but yea I like when people appreciate it, it makes me feel not as "dirty" like not like whore dirty but like I'm feeling the wrong way and doing the wrong stuff dirty you know?! so yea thanks! yours are better tho!