Another Time Around
I'm off to work in about 30minutes. But Just felt like airing out my thoughts before I go.. Less stuff to have on my mind when I'm working ya know?
I have decided to accept my life. Over the past couple of weeks I have been in a real shithole as far as the way I've felt. I've thought of doing things that nobody should ever even consider doing. I know I have my problems, but I'm going to work through them myself. It's time I stopped trying to fit in with everybody else and just start being myself for a change.
I feel now though, that after Last night, I have lost a great friend.
I must be pushing people away everytime they start to have any sort of feelings for me, because It's happened several times now.
I understand that she doesn't love me, and from what she said she never did. That doesn't change the fact that she has a place in my heart and always will. But it's time to move on. I hope for her, the same as I hope for all my friends... that she has or will find someone who can truely make her happy. Someone who isn't afraid to say how they feel or show her love in front of a lot of people.. that's what everyone deserves, true happiness.
I just hope that I have not truely lost her friendship.. That's what I miss the most. We had a lot of fun hanging out together and just being goofy. And to be honest, I don't have many friends like that.
I will be working hard at doing everything I never thought I could do, from here on out.. I'll be getting in shape by going to a gym everyday, going to practice swimming so I can get use to swimming again who cares about the damn ears anymore.. I'm thinking about looking into taking singing lessons, since several people seem to think I'm such a good singer might as well get practice at it.. I've made plans this summer to learn how to ride a horse and to go skydiving.. I'm going to live life for the moment, no more of this worrying stuff.
To live by the second, Learn from the moment, and Love forever..
To everyone out there in the Real World... I love you all, you're some of the best people in the world.. Never change who you are for someone else.
-Noah
I have decided to accept my life. Over the past couple of weeks I have been in a real shithole as far as the way I've felt. I've thought of doing things that nobody should ever even consider doing. I know I have my problems, but I'm going to work through them myself. It's time I stopped trying to fit in with everybody else and just start being myself for a change.
I feel now though, that after Last night, I have lost a great friend.
I must be pushing people away everytime they start to have any sort of feelings for me, because It's happened several times now.
I understand that she doesn't love me, and from what she said she never did. That doesn't change the fact that she has a place in my heart and always will. But it's time to move on. I hope for her, the same as I hope for all my friends... that she has or will find someone who can truely make her happy. Someone who isn't afraid to say how they feel or show her love in front of a lot of people.. that's what everyone deserves, true happiness.
I just hope that I have not truely lost her friendship.. That's what I miss the most. We had a lot of fun hanging out together and just being goofy. And to be honest, I don't have many friends like that.
I will be working hard at doing everything I never thought I could do, from here on out.. I'll be getting in shape by going to a gym everyday, going to practice swimming so I can get use to swimming again who cares about the damn ears anymore.. I'm thinking about looking into taking singing lessons, since several people seem to think I'm such a good singer might as well get practice at it.. I've made plans this summer to learn how to ride a horse and to go skydiving.. I'm going to live life for the moment, no more of this worrying stuff.
To live by the second, Learn from the moment, and Love forever..
To everyone out there in the Real World... I love you all, you're some of the best people in the world.. Never change who you are for someone else.
-Noah