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In the mood for a fight... I am for some reason very aggitated today, have been since yesterday afternoon.. I would just love for someone to start shit with me today! I don't care how big or how small they might be, anyone starts crap with me they're liable to open up the gates of my own hellish nightmare and have 250lbs of pissed off psycho on

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you people underestimate and ignore what and who I am. You all see me as this nice, sweet, caring guy who is always there for his friends and always there for everyone even complete strangers.. The cold hard truth is I'm not an angel, I have a bad side. I can't be all nice and happy all the damn time.. I give and give and give to my friends, I give everything I can to everyone I know in terms of loyalty, honesty, caring and respect.. And what have I been getting in return? It pretty much feels like I get jackshit in return. I get called up when it's convenient for other people, but save for maybe 1 or 2 people anyone else I try to call to talk to even if for a minute they never answer. I have to be a damned fool for having believed so long in the things I did.. Nice guys never win, they ALWAYS finish last and get screwed over at every god damned turn.. so that's it, I'm sick and tired of being a nice guy.. I will be a smartass and I can be an asshole. Before I would talk to someone even when I didn't feel like talking to them because it made them Happier, from now on if I don't feel like talking to you I'm liable to tell you to go fuck off..

As far as the "fight", lori, you picked the worst possible time to speak your mind to me.. you picked the worst time to even talk to me, I would have snapped off at anyone you just happened to be the one who messaged me. Yes I am still in a very pisspoor mood, everything positive about my life is going down the shitter fast..
I'm just a damned idiot.. I still love someone who apparently doesn't give two shits about me, and I stuipdly care about people who only call me when it's convenient for them and when they want/need something.. but hey, i'm fucked up anyway so who knows in a day or so everything may be fine and dandy with me or I may just drink myself into a stupor so that for atleast a little while nothing will matter to me and I can be in my own state of blissful happiness.