Aug 14, 2005 19:26
She's such a mystery. Just when you think you know exactly how she feels, she surprises you with something that you don't understand, and you start to think that perhaps she really feels differently. When you ask her if she does feel differently, you almost feel stupid for asking because she makes it clear to you that she loves you and isn't going anywhere.
It comforts you for the time being, until you do something stupid again and she points it out to you. You take it as her pointing out your flaws and get offended, even a little hurt, but she explains to you that she loves you and is just trying to have a nice laugh.
She wants to do something with someone else, someone she claims is just a really good friend. You tell her you're ok with it, but you really have that little scared feeling in your stomach that she might enjoy this person's company more than she enjoys yours. She lets you know that she loves you and isn't even interested in anyone else.
You feel like you have to act a certain way around her, and that you're not allowed to show certain feelings, because she has this idea of a perfect significant other and if you don't match what she's looking for, she's going to split. So when she tells you that you're starting to act like what she doesn't like in a significant other, you get scared and just forget about how you felt bad, and bottle up those feelings so that she won't think you're just like every other person, that you're different.
You know you love her, you love her so much, you're just always wondering how much she really loves you.