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I can honestly say that there are only maybe two handfulls of people that I love. My love for someone is not only based on who they are as a person but also the way that they lead their life and treat others. Good people. Selfless people. Genuine and thoughtful people. These are the qualities that attract me to someone. And that's that.
Connie was one of those few I loved. You couldn't help but love her, she just oozed kindness and compassion.
The last time I saw Connie she reached out and gave me a hug. I think back at that moment and I hate myself. Why didn't I hug her harder? I know it wouldn't have saved her, but I just wish I had. I can't say that I've ever felt this sad before. Not only sad that I will never see Connie again, but I am sad for the all the pain she felt. Just to think about the amount of hoplessness it takes to commit suicide just overwhelms and consumes me.
My heart is broken. Absolutely crushed.
I'm sorry Connie. I'm sorry that you couldn't find peace here. You've helped me so much that I wish I could have helped you. I know it wasn't an easy decision, it was probably the hardest one you ever made. Hugging everyone for the last time must have only made it harder. I'm not mad at you, just sad for you. I could never express how much you will be missed. I love you, and will never forget you.
RIP Connie Avery
Connie was one of those few I loved. You couldn't help but love her, she just oozed kindness and compassion.
The last time I saw Connie she reached out and gave me a hug. I think back at that moment and I hate myself. Why didn't I hug her harder? I know it wouldn't have saved her, but I just wish I had. I can't say that I've ever felt this sad before. Not only sad that I will never see Connie again, but I am sad for the all the pain she felt. Just to think about the amount of hoplessness it takes to commit suicide just overwhelms and consumes me.
My heart is broken. Absolutely crushed.
I'm sorry Connie. I'm sorry that you couldn't find peace here. You've helped me so much that I wish I could have helped you. I know it wasn't an easy decision, it was probably the hardest one you ever made. Hugging everyone for the last time must have only made it harder. I'm not mad at you, just sad for you. I could never express how much you will be missed. I love you, and will never forget you.
RIP Connie Avery