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I don't know why I'm about to write in this thing. I guess I just need to rant a bit. The upcoming holidays have me a bit on edge. I mean, obviously they always suck now with half the family missing, but I can't help but dreeeeeeead it every single year. I'm just anxious about the whole thing, they always bring up the past, my parents, Lukas, etc. I just can't always handle talking about it like that, or at least not with them. So, what am I doing now? Getting fucked up so I can just not think about it, way to deal with things healthily, Cassie, good job. Oh well, at least this way maybe I'll cry out some of what's been building up that I haven't talked about. And since I'll be alone I can deal with the feelings however I choose to.
On a more positive note, I'll be graduating with a bachelor degree in 3 weeks. I'm excited as hell, but scared at the same time. I'm just ready to be able to fall apart without having to worry about potentially missing something important for school.
I guess I'm done now, I can't think of anything else to say.
On a more positive note, I'll be graduating with a bachelor degree in 3 weeks. I'm excited as hell, but scared at the same time. I'm just ready to be able to fall apart without having to worry about potentially missing something important for school.
I guess I'm done now, I can't think of anything else to say.