i have never felt so alone.
... i am really beginning to wonder about myself. i just feel so alone and almost.. fucking worthless. i mean.. andrew for example. completely fucks me over...COMPLETELY... after all the fucking shit he put me through for 2 years on and off. then john asks me out... stops talking to me.. hangs out with ANDREW..then basically breaks up with me. so then. prom. i ask paul.. he says no. he is taking andrew to the aftergrad... he is one of my pretty good friends and would rather go alone to the dinner and with andrew to the after grad....and the only person i care about.. i cant see... ruairi is in another fucking country. i couldnt see him even if i wanred to...
i guess i am just exhausted. i honestly have no self-esteem left.. no energy left. i want to cut andrew AND john...
am i really not worth staying with.
i guess i am just exhausted. i honestly have no self-esteem left.. no energy left. i want to cut andrew AND john...
am i really not worth staying with.