being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up...
Hell yes!!! hey mercedes is coming twice in march. i am so fucking excited. i recently missed one of their shows because i thought it was two days later than it actually was. goddamnit.
So, shits been going well. me and shannon are back to normal and i have never appreciated it more. fuck yes for good times. i'm still a little on edge, though but it's going away more and more each day. it's not that anythings wrong it's just that i'm in the habit of expecting the worst, especially when things are going right. it's just the pattern my life flows in...and shit with chris and julia seems to be working out well so according to the usual, something should be nipping at my ass sometime soon. but who knows? maybe we'll both be and stay happy at the same time for once. that would a very welcome change of pace.
Anyways, shannon met my dad, his wife, my sister, and my brother-in-law for the first time the other day. that was a little awkward for me. i haven't seen him in three years or so, and he was drunk, and i got pretty sad towards the end of the night. whenever i see him, i get this feeling that i'm letting everyone down. i found out my dog died too. i really liked that dog. i didn't get to see him much 'cause he lived with my dad way up north but it's been there ever since i was little and it meant something to me. it was 14 years old, though. which is pretty old for a dog. its kinda strange. i feel like i'm growing up and i don't like it. i really, really like being a kid. my dog dying just makes me feel that much older. i guess i had an good time, though. shannon was there, which made it a whole lot better, and my family seemed to really like her and vice-versa. that kinda makes me feel good. i don't know why. i was really on edge about the whole thing in the beginning. i think shannon was too. she wouldn't let me go for most of the night. i really liked it. i love being loved, especially by her. she is such a cool girl.
Good news -i'm moving out in 4 days! i never have to see my family again. i'm glad. i really don't like them. i can't wait. i miss being home so much. it feels like it's been forever.
Later on, i'm gonna hang out with shannon. i'm excited. i really want to see her today. heh...."my name is dave schaller and i'm an addict." i am so lame.
Just to let everyong know, my birthday most like gonna be on saturday, if i decide to celebrate that is. so just ask me later if you don't already. if you don't know me and can't ask, don't come. that should be obvious, i guess, but people do strange things sometimes.
So, shits been going well. me and shannon are back to normal and i have never appreciated it more. fuck yes for good times. i'm still a little on edge, though but it's going away more and more each day. it's not that anythings wrong it's just that i'm in the habit of expecting the worst, especially when things are going right. it's just the pattern my life flows in...and shit with chris and julia seems to be working out well so according to the usual, something should be nipping at my ass sometime soon. but who knows? maybe we'll both be and stay happy at the same time for once. that would a very welcome change of pace.
Anyways, shannon met my dad, his wife, my sister, and my brother-in-law for the first time the other day. that was a little awkward for me. i haven't seen him in three years or so, and he was drunk, and i got pretty sad towards the end of the night. whenever i see him, i get this feeling that i'm letting everyone down. i found out my dog died too. i really liked that dog. i didn't get to see him much 'cause he lived with my dad way up north but it's been there ever since i was little and it meant something to me. it was 14 years old, though. which is pretty old for a dog. its kinda strange. i feel like i'm growing up and i don't like it. i really, really like being a kid. my dog dying just makes me feel that much older. i guess i had an good time, though. shannon was there, which made it a whole lot better, and my family seemed to really like her and vice-versa. that kinda makes me feel good. i don't know why. i was really on edge about the whole thing in the beginning. i think shannon was too. she wouldn't let me go for most of the night. i really liked it. i love being loved, especially by her. she is such a cool girl.
Good news -i'm moving out in 4 days! i never have to see my family again. i'm glad. i really don't like them. i can't wait. i miss being home so much. it feels like it's been forever.
Later on, i'm gonna hang out with shannon. i'm excited. i really want to see her today. heh...."my name is dave schaller and i'm an addict." i am so lame.
Just to let everyong know, my birthday most like gonna be on saturday, if i decide to celebrate that is. so just ask me later if you don't already. if you don't know me and can't ask, don't come. that should be obvious, i guess, but people do strange things sometimes.