how do you say goodbye?

[0omercedeso0]

i don't know how to cope with all of this. i think i'm freaking out. everything hurts. all the memories, all the reminders, the smiles, every fucking wave, and every apology and compliment. i don't know how to deal with this except by blocking it all out and if that keeps up i am just going to crack. i'm not ready to let everything go. i keep

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[killedaprincess]

It's only been 2 days and already i feel like you died. With every thought of you tears up my insides, leaving little scars until i've grown numb. And i'm always thinking about you. Is it normal to feel this way about someone you broke up with? And it's not even just leaving you.. it's how much i've hurt someone i love more than anything in the process. Dave, this break up is scaring me and hurting me much more than necessary.. I want to be with you so bad, thats all i can think about but i know i have to be alone for some time before i'm able to... or if i'm able to. You have no idea how badly i want to push this bullshit aside and just be happy in your arms again. But i can't because if i don't get this over with if we ever are able to be with each other again i won't be totallly satisfied which means you wouldn't either. So in reality i'm really only doing this to make our relationship better in the future.

I'm not sure if i'm allowed to be telling you all this or not.. or if it's even fair for you.. i just really want you to know i haven't forgotten and how i truly feel about all this.

Love you always,
Shannon