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I have yet to being writing stuff here on the net cause i got a very pretty journal from my neighbor and have choosen to make it an optemistic-journal. So far, it works.
But i have something on my mind now that i rather not use a pencil for.
I feel like i'm about to cry. Two cosplayers i know of just got married^^ i feel so happy for them, feels like i'm gonna cry.
It makes me wonder.
Will I ever be that happy?
Will it even be real?
Will it last?
Be forever?
For some reason, there are things i can't picture myself with. Like having a boy-friend. I can't see that happening. And don't know why.
A girl-friend. I can see other than the frist one.Not all that clear. AND i wonder why.
I know i can never have what i really want. No matter how hard i wish. It just wont happen.
There are certian things in this world you have to settle for.
It will never be like you picture it.
But i wish it could.
I wish i could have want i want. what i wish for.
What do i wish for anyway?
I'm a "waiter".
I'm not the to brake the ice. Normally.
If there is someone i really like i will tell them.
At times it feels like i give so much love to friends and just how i am...i wonder. Will it ever be returned?
Will I be loved one day?
So many tunes play in my head.
I don't know what to think.
But wait.
Wait till the next sunrise.
Then the next one.
And the next one.
And the nxt one.
But i have something on my mind now that i rather not use a pencil for.
I feel like i'm about to cry. Two cosplayers i know of just got married^^ i feel so happy for them, feels like i'm gonna cry.
It makes me wonder.
Will I ever be that happy?
Will it even be real?
Will it last?
Be forever?
For some reason, there are things i can't picture myself with. Like having a boy-friend. I can't see that happening. And don't know why.
A girl-friend. I can see other than the frist one.Not all that clear. AND i wonder why.
I know i can never have what i really want. No matter how hard i wish. It just wont happen.
There are certian things in this world you have to settle for.
It will never be like you picture it.
But i wish it could.
I wish i could have want i want. what i wish for.
What do i wish for anyway?
I'm a "waiter".
I'm not the to brake the ice. Normally.
If there is someone i really like i will tell them.
At times it feels like i give so much love to friends and just how i am...i wonder. Will it ever be returned?
Will I be loved one day?
So many tunes play in my head.
I don't know what to think.
But wait.
Wait till the next sunrise.
Then the next one.
And the next one.
And the nxt one.