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hmph!
Current mood: sad
there are reasons i dont clean my room often and go through my stuff
because i found stuff from when david and i were togther photos we took, drawings of his, the note that came with the flowers he sent me for valentines day and the silly ontes he used to leaveme, and the earrings he made me all in one drawer in my dresser hat i havent touched for 5 months or longer.... wow thats alot of stuff i didnt know i had
i cant believe i thought i got rid of it all
and i cannot bring myself to get rid of it all
i wish so hard that i could i just can't
i realized how much i have changed since then
i would never have dreampt that i would be in college not living with him by now and still with no car.... and going out with jazz and Rachel all the time.spending plenty of time at home asleep and not studying as of right now i don't think im passing a single class....ekkkk
i know there typos galore in here but your just going to have to deal with the fact that i am really lazy
i guess for now ill just stuff them back in my dresser and figure it all out later
its almost been 2 months
and it still makes me wanna cry when i find a photo of him or of me around then or anything that reminds me....
Every time i even see those photo's or even think of it
i feel a little bit of my happiness die inside of me
Current mood: sad
there are reasons i dont clean my room often and go through my stuff
because i found stuff from when david and i were togther photos we took, drawings of his, the note that came with the flowers he sent me for valentines day and the silly ontes he used to leaveme, and the earrings he made me all in one drawer in my dresser hat i havent touched for 5 months or longer.... wow thats alot of stuff i didnt know i had
i cant believe i thought i got rid of it all
and i cannot bring myself to get rid of it all
i wish so hard that i could i just can't
i realized how much i have changed since then
i would never have dreampt that i would be in college not living with him by now and still with no car.... and going out with jazz and Rachel all the time.spending plenty of time at home asleep and not studying as of right now i don't think im passing a single class....ekkkk
i know there typos galore in here but your just going to have to deal with the fact that i am really lazy
i guess for now ill just stuff them back in my dresser and figure it all out later
its almost been 2 months
and it still makes me wanna cry when i find a photo of him or of me around then or anything that reminds me....
Every time i even see those photo's or even think of it
i feel a little bit of my happiness die inside of me