Tired
Wow.. Today has probably been the longest day of my life. Such a horrible sucky day. I didn't really want to be in school and I sure didn't want to go to work yet I still did. There's something wrong with me but i'm not to sure yet...I know something is because I have been very distracted and feeling useless and unwanted. I Feel as if I don't deserve the love that is being given to me by someone. Everything is so confusing and I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up. If only I could have one day to myself, one day to sleep and sit around doing nothing. My life is so hectic and stressed its not funny.
All I ever do now is wake up, go to school, go to work, come home and sleep..then get up and do it all over again. I miss being me. Carefree, happy, wild, and I miss having a social life outside of school. Most of my friends have betrayed me or just pushed me off to the side. I'm forgotten about or left out or just plain ignored.
Kas has been there for me and included me in a lot of new things. She is the one who introduced me to all of these new people, these people who do not judge me for what I look like, or the way I dress or what I've done in my life......Here I'll tell you all now:
I don't think i'm the prettiest of girls...hell i'm far from it. I dress the way I feel comfortable....sometimes I don't match....ok ok....most of the time I don't match. I love my hoodie...its the one and only thing I feel safe in. It could be 90* outside and i'd stil; have my hoodie with me. And my life...well lets see...I've had sex...Whoop-dee-doo! Yes I like having sex...and even infront of people but oh well!? God it's my life I live it how I live it nno one else can judge me till they've been in my shoes.
A little to much information for you? Well thats me also....I tend to just say useless info. out of the blue...or sometimes something way off topic but hey thats what makes me, me. I've never regreted anything i've done in the past and I still dont.
All I ever do now is wake up, go to school, go to work, come home and sleep..then get up and do it all over again. I miss being me. Carefree, happy, wild, and I miss having a social life outside of school. Most of my friends have betrayed me or just pushed me off to the side. I'm forgotten about or left out or just plain ignored.
Kas has been there for me and included me in a lot of new things. She is the one who introduced me to all of these new people, these people who do not judge me for what I look like, or the way I dress or what I've done in my life......Here I'll tell you all now:
I don't think i'm the prettiest of girls...hell i'm far from it. I dress the way I feel comfortable....sometimes I don't match....ok ok....most of the time I don't match. I love my hoodie...its the one and only thing I feel safe in. It could be 90* outside and i'd stil; have my hoodie with me. And my life...well lets see...I've had sex...Whoop-dee-doo! Yes I like having sex...and even infront of people but oh well!? God it's my life I live it how I live it nno one else can judge me till they've been in my shoes.
A little to much information for you? Well thats me also....I tend to just say useless info. out of the blue...or sometimes something way off topic but hey thats what makes me, me. I've never regreted anything i've done in the past and I still dont.