changes...
3 months to go ...
im not working, nothing..
right now im barely getting by.. im baby sitting for my aunt.
she pays me!
:)
i HATE that evrytime i get on here its always a depressed entry..
but this is the only place i feel that i can actually open up on.
life is about to hit my like a train that never slowed down...
im so scared..
i need him by my side.. and yeah we talk some times.. but is that really good enough?
i found out that a few months ago he did have a g/f ..and some other things i would
have rather never liked to know... but people like to throw things in my face sometimes.
theres one girl out there, that i know loves him as much as i do and that scares me.
she is so perfect .. i dont see why he wouldnt want to be with her ..
and i have the biggest feeling he is seeing her..
i know we arnt together, and theres no telling if we ever will be..
im just not ready for him to be in a relationship..
selfish i know.. but im having his baby.............
and i do want to be with him .. cuz i love him and always have ..
but im trying to throw all those thoughts away.. forget about them ..
its just sadness that i dont need to have.
and i have a lot of things that i need to focus on right now other then
him seeing this PeRfEcT girl.
its hard yah know??
i feel everything crashing down around me, and im powerless to stop it....
:(
im not working, nothing..
right now im barely getting by.. im baby sitting for my aunt.
she pays me!
:)
i HATE that evrytime i get on here its always a depressed entry..
but this is the only place i feel that i can actually open up on.
life is about to hit my like a train that never slowed down...
im so scared..
i need him by my side.. and yeah we talk some times.. but is that really good enough?
i found out that a few months ago he did have a g/f ..and some other things i would
have rather never liked to know... but people like to throw things in my face sometimes.
theres one girl out there, that i know loves him as much as i do and that scares me.
she is so perfect .. i dont see why he wouldnt want to be with her ..
and i have the biggest feeling he is seeing her..
i know we arnt together, and theres no telling if we ever will be..
im just not ready for him to be in a relationship..
selfish i know.. but im having his baby.............
and i do want to be with him .. cuz i love him and always have ..
but im trying to throw all those thoughts away.. forget about them ..
its just sadness that i dont need to have.
and i have a lot of things that i need to focus on right now other then
him seeing this PeRfEcT girl.
its hard yah know??
i feel everything crashing down around me, and im powerless to stop it....
:(