The morning after
Its 08:12 and iv had no sleep and ive got to got to work soon... i feeel like death. Last night maingauche was meant to come to my house but aparantly her had a cold or some kind of illness or fever or whatever which he said he got from eating something the day before (yeah ok) he might actually be ill but i have the tendency not to trust guys. So that pissed me off but he didnt seem to get the message that i was pissed off i think my text just seemed like i was concerned for him. Anyway in my head i keep listing things as excuses, like he never comes to somewhere that i invite him to bla bla blaa that kinda crap because basicly last night i went to a party at sanford met a guy called nicko and made out with him a couple of times. So thats why im trying to make excuses for myself becuase i feel bad that i dont actually feel bad about doing it (well i mean i do feel bad but that doesnt stop me liking it) Anyway fuck it maingauche has a girlfriend and our relationship isnt serious and it kinda freaks me out when he tells me he love my ass or something becuase someone saying they love parts of u is just one step away for actually saying the LOVE word, and i cant really be dealing with that now. But i like him i really like him.