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I was looking through myspaces of my friends... and looking at their pictures and comments and such. I was incredibly bored, don't judge me. -.- Annnnyway... I noticed a theme. All of my friends have their little groups. Group, clique, circle... whatever you want to call it. They all have a core group of friends that hang out frequently and share little secrets and jokes and funnies. I realized... I don't have that. I have friends, yes. I'm certainly not bitching aboot a lack of friends here. I'm just... I want a group! I'm jealous and I'll admit it. Maybe not jealous... envious? Much like Ross said.. i dont know the difference between the two words. Same thing to me. As I was saying... my friends are scattered. They've all got busy lives with work, their core group, having fun. I have... games, my dog, my music, and this computer. I want to be a part of a group of friends that have jokes and laugh together and make real plans together. Every time I make plans with someone... they have to clear it with all their other people first. merff. It's not fair. I guess I'm just tired of spending the majority of my time alone.
Another thing thats been bothering me the past several days... being lonely. I miss having someone to care aboot, to worry aboot, to miss, to cuddle, and to return all those feelings. I think I'm starting to want a boy/girl friend again. *sigh* But I'm confused. I don't know if it's because I'm ready for it... or because I'm just lonely. I don't want to get into a relationship for the wrong reasons. I don't wanna do that to someone. merff. That said... I've been talking to a boy lately. He's really cool. We like a lot of the same things. He's funny, he's random, he's smart... and it doesnt hurt that he's absolutely ADORABLE. I can't out-right say that I like him yet... we've only been talking for a short period of time and I have yet to actually meet him. (I'm done with liking people before I meet them. Absolutely retarded and I generally end up hating them because I build false expectations) But he seems like a guy I could really dig. I have no clue what he thinks. I doubt it's anything like what I think. But whatever... ya know? It's not like I'd ever get the guts to say anything even if I DID end up liking him like that. bleh.
I'm gonna go rock out to some Foxy Shazam! for awhile. :]
Another thing thats been bothering me the past several days... being lonely. I miss having someone to care aboot, to worry aboot, to miss, to cuddle, and to return all those feelings. I think I'm starting to want a boy/girl friend again. *sigh* But I'm confused. I don't know if it's because I'm ready for it... or because I'm just lonely. I don't want to get into a relationship for the wrong reasons. I don't wanna do that to someone. merff. That said... I've been talking to a boy lately. He's really cool. We like a lot of the same things. He's funny, he's random, he's smart... and it doesnt hurt that he's absolutely ADORABLE. I can't out-right say that I like him yet... we've only been talking for a short period of time and I have yet to actually meet him. (I'm done with liking people before I meet them. Absolutely retarded and I generally end up hating them because I build false expectations) But he seems like a guy I could really dig. I have no clue what he thinks. I doubt it's anything like what I think. But whatever... ya know? It's not like I'd ever get the guts to say anything even if I DID end up liking him like that. bleh.
I'm gonna go rock out to some Foxy Shazam! for awhile. :]