Take me as I am..
If you hadn't spoken with me in a while, chances are, I'm a different person then when we spoke last. I'm not that person anymore.
I used to be somebody I couldn't stand, inside and out. I would turn my back on the people who meant most to me.
I learned how to lie, and lie well. I judged people so much it became a habit I thought I would never break.
I even threatened to leave two of the only people I had left after they did something I wouldn't have done.
I shut out three fourths of the people I was once close with.
These were people that brought a smile to my face everytime I saw them.. People that meant more to me than they knew.
I played mind games with people, and I was quick to accuse people, and slow to listen.
Plainly spoken, I was a wreck of a person.
And I was like this for about a year, almost two even.
To be honest, I haven't the slightest idea how I got that way.
But the part that still amazes me, is that a couple people stuck by me, despite what I put them through.
I have no idea why they did, but I am incredibly grateful for them.
I value my relationships with these people more than anything.
So thank you. You each mean so much to me.
In other notes..
I had the time of my life this weekend. I'll go into detail later, but it was the most fun I've had in a long time. I am so glad I got to hang out with everybody I did, I missed each of you guys!! Thanks!