Today feels like forever from yesterday...
OMGoodness I haven't updated in 5748375873 years. Well here's a quick update on everything thats been going on..I'll update in a few weeks with much more detail.
I worked with my mom alot, spent time with the kids, hung out with Meghan O'Neill..I missed her so much! Then on June 19th I headed to Camp Wonder and got back on June 26th. That was the first of 4 camps for kids and teens with skin disorders that I am a counselor at this summer. It was my first time to Cali and an awesome experience, the kids were fabulous and as inspiring as ever...I'll save the details for later.
Then I did alot more work for my mom, hung out with Meghan O'Neill again..we saw Farhenheit 9/11...awesome movie..made me cry ALOT..NEVER EVER voting for Bush..not that I was planning on it anyways btu I couldnt never do it in good conscince after watching that movie. Then on July 1st I headed to the Ichthyosis (the skin disorder I have) conference in Kansas City, MO. It was absolutely wonderful and I also ran an Art Therapy group for the pre-teens there which went really really well. It was so sad to see the things the kids came up with and really brought me back to my memories of growing up as a child being different than everyone else. I didn't think I'd have such a hard time leaving but I couldn't stop crying all the way home and everytime I even pictured someone in my mind I started crying again...its like seeing your family for 3 days every 2 years and then having to leave again knowing how much you love them and yet how long it will be until you see them again. More details later on that too.
Right before I came home something huge happened in my family....of course what would my life be without such disasters...lets just say God blessed me again by placing the opportunity before me to go to Minnesota way before Camp....its because I can't be home right now...I can't handle all that stuff...physically and mentally..I'll just say that there were drugs involved...a member of my family broke into my house stole stuff, beat my sister up really bad which sent her spiraling back into a state I haven't seen her in in a long time and I never want to see that person again..ever. I'm so angry and scared and frustrated and it all seemed to get worse having my parents together for the conference. It was like torture to be around them...my dad didn't take much of his medicine while we were there so he wasn't a zombie like usual..but he was drinking the whole weekend like I haven't seen him drink so much since he was an active alcholic and he embarrased me so much..but my friends love me and I know they didn't care. But the whole situation that happened while we were away just added to everything..I just can't believe how God always balances all the heartache in my life with the happiest times of my life..I could never be angry with God..because its Him that saves me everytime I'm about to fall.
So I got home Sunday night about 10:30pm and then yesterday I flew out at about 3:30pm from Boston..all the lights and everything went out in the airport because of the rain..it was crazy but lucky my flight sitll left on time and now I'm at a friends house in Minnesota having the best time and I straightened my hair for the first time tonight..hehe I love it. We ate dinner last night at the Mall of America at this place called the Rainforest..its the collest place I've ever seen..there are trees everywhere and smoke and fish tanks and paintings and its SO cool. Tommorow a bunch of people are flying in early(including two absolutely gorgeous guys) and we're all going to the Mall of America for dinner and shopping..and to ride the roller coaster haha...then staying at a hotel and then Thursday there is a Camp Golf Tournament that we're all going to to raise money for camp. We won't be playing..we'll be watching rich men play as we ride around in golf carts haha. Then Friday is the start of Kids Camp..then the following week is Teen Camp....I'm really home...finally.
And it doesn't hurt that home is full of cute boys:)
Katie
PS. I know its not just my imagination but I feel seperated from some of my friends because I don't drink and don't like to be around it..not that they are excluding me because I don't but that I'm not being invited to go out because thats what they prefer to do..its really bothering me and maybe its just because we're at different points in our lives..neither one being better than the other..just different...but I just don't want something like that to affect close friendshipsI don't drink because of what I've been through in my life and because I don't like to do something just because supposedly "now is the time to do it" ..I've always felt different and I am different..and I've always thought that I should take advanatge of that and do what others wouldnt' expect..and thats what I plan on doing the rest of my life..making my self happy not others..but I don't want to loose the people in my life that in the past have been such a big part of my life. I don't know if any of that made sense but it doesn't really matter because its how I feel.
PPS. I miss my butteflies already;(
I worked with my mom alot, spent time with the kids, hung out with Meghan O'Neill..I missed her so much! Then on June 19th I headed to Camp Wonder and got back on June 26th. That was the first of 4 camps for kids and teens with skin disorders that I am a counselor at this summer. It was my first time to Cali and an awesome experience, the kids were fabulous and as inspiring as ever...I'll save the details for later.
Then I did alot more work for my mom, hung out with Meghan O'Neill again..we saw Farhenheit 9/11...awesome movie..made me cry ALOT..NEVER EVER voting for Bush..not that I was planning on it anyways btu I couldnt never do it in good conscince after watching that movie. Then on July 1st I headed to the Ichthyosis (the skin disorder I have) conference in Kansas City, MO. It was absolutely wonderful and I also ran an Art Therapy group for the pre-teens there which went really really well. It was so sad to see the things the kids came up with and really brought me back to my memories of growing up as a child being different than everyone else. I didn't think I'd have such a hard time leaving but I couldn't stop crying all the way home and everytime I even pictured someone in my mind I started crying again...its like seeing your family for 3 days every 2 years and then having to leave again knowing how much you love them and yet how long it will be until you see them again. More details later on that too.
Right before I came home something huge happened in my family....of course what would my life be without such disasters...lets just say God blessed me again by placing the opportunity before me to go to Minnesota way before Camp....its because I can't be home right now...I can't handle all that stuff...physically and mentally..I'll just say that there were drugs involved...a member of my family broke into my house stole stuff, beat my sister up really bad which sent her spiraling back into a state I haven't seen her in in a long time and I never want to see that person again..ever. I'm so angry and scared and frustrated and it all seemed to get worse having my parents together for the conference. It was like torture to be around them...my dad didn't take much of his medicine while we were there so he wasn't a zombie like usual..but he was drinking the whole weekend like I haven't seen him drink so much since he was an active alcholic and he embarrased me so much..but my friends love me and I know they didn't care. But the whole situation that happened while we were away just added to everything..I just can't believe how God always balances all the heartache in my life with the happiest times of my life..I could never be angry with God..because its Him that saves me everytime I'm about to fall.
So I got home Sunday night about 10:30pm and then yesterday I flew out at about 3:30pm from Boston..all the lights and everything went out in the airport because of the rain..it was crazy but lucky my flight sitll left on time and now I'm at a friends house in Minnesota having the best time and I straightened my hair for the first time tonight..hehe I love it. We ate dinner last night at the Mall of America at this place called the Rainforest..its the collest place I've ever seen..there are trees everywhere and smoke and fish tanks and paintings and its SO cool. Tommorow a bunch of people are flying in early(including two absolutely gorgeous guys) and we're all going to the Mall of America for dinner and shopping..and to ride the roller coaster haha...then staying at a hotel and then Thursday there is a Camp Golf Tournament that we're all going to to raise money for camp. We won't be playing..we'll be watching rich men play as we ride around in golf carts haha. Then Friday is the start of Kids Camp..then the following week is Teen Camp....I'm really home...finally.
And it doesn't hurt that home is full of cute boys:)
Katie
PS. I know its not just my imagination but I feel seperated from some of my friends because I don't drink and don't like to be around it..not that they are excluding me because I don't but that I'm not being invited to go out because thats what they prefer to do..its really bothering me and maybe its just because we're at different points in our lives..neither one being better than the other..just different...but I just don't want something like that to affect close friendshipsI don't drink because of what I've been through in my life and because I don't like to do something just because supposedly "now is the time to do it" ..I've always felt different and I am different..and I've always thought that I should take advanatge of that and do what others wouldnt' expect..and thats what I plan on doing the rest of my life..making my self happy not others..but I don't want to loose the people in my life that in the past have been such a big part of my life. I don't know if any of that made sense but it doesn't really matter because its how I feel.
PPS. I miss my butteflies already;(