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I wish I had more time. I want more of the people I love in my life. I want to constantly to have an interesting thing to talk about. We talked about love is psychology today. It made me feel warm, but I also realized I need people for my life to feel complete. I used to be completely content with being by myself for prolonged periods of time, and now I feel like I'm dependant on the presence of others to make me happy. Yes, there are worse things in the world, but I still wish it wasn't that way because I know people are always going to move in and out of my life. I wish maintaining friendships was easier. I really miss feeling close to a few particular people. I wouldn't even blame it on growing apart, it feels more like they have found people more compatible with them. And I hate feeling like that, inferior.
Despite this, I'm not in a bad mood. A pretty good mood infact. I guess I just had to get that stuff out.
I'm about to attempt to learn a song on the guitar. I want to learn it for Cody, because they lyrics describe us perfectly. And I have to be really good at the guitar part to be able to sing it at the same time though. He always plays for me and makes me feel really special, so I want to do the same. It's way harder than it seems though. But I'm motivated.
I'm super exicted for The Shins.
Despite this, I'm not in a bad mood. A pretty good mood infact. I guess I just had to get that stuff out.
I'm about to attempt to learn a song on the guitar. I want to learn it for Cody, because they lyrics describe us perfectly. And I have to be really good at the guitar part to be able to sing it at the same time though. He always plays for me and makes me feel really special, so I want to do the same. It's way harder than it seems though. But I'm motivated.
I'm super exicted for The Shins.