Going To California with an aching in my heart.
I already live in California, but the point remains the same. If you've heard this song then I'm sure you know how i'm feeling...
For those that know me well, you're probably aware of the emotional rollercoaster that I ride on a day-to-day basis. Somedays, it really shows and others I do my best to hide it so that it doesn't affect others. Today happens to be one of those days where I can't help but dwell in the past. I'm constantly reliving the last day that she and I had together and I hate how much of an asshole I was. But it's over now, and I doubt there is much I could do to mend the wounds that I carelessly created.
Final Fantasy XI has been my escape from all of this. I watch as the virtual me runs around (aimlessly at times) in this virtual world and somehow it makes me 'happy'. Over the course of a little more than a year now I've met many great people and made some really good friends. Logging in each day I'm welcomed warmly by the members of my Linkshell, and my close friends send me silly ASCII faces via /tell. It truly is quite an escape for me, because during these hours of the day I actually feel happy.
I must apologize, as I am absolutely uncertain what direction this journal entry is heading. I was just kinda feeling a bit sad today and thought I'd post up my thoughts. Please feel free to completely disregard my feeble ramblings and skip to the pictures section just ahead.
The Fun Stuff:
Ark Angels Burning Circle Fight:
We were all very pleased to beat this on our "Test Run".
Of course I chose the Knight's Earring for my Paladin.
My first Relic Armor!
Fun with weaponskills, new highest damage with 300% Full Swing.
>:D
And lastly...I am about 2k exp from 62 on my Bard. Been camping Novv the Whitehearted (for Minstrel's Coat) for a few weeks now; I'm 0/11 BTW.
Carnage Elegy pwns...
Until the next time...
Jefu
For those that know me well, you're probably aware of the emotional rollercoaster that I ride on a day-to-day basis. Somedays, it really shows and others I do my best to hide it so that it doesn't affect others. Today happens to be one of those days where I can't help but dwell in the past. I'm constantly reliving the last day that she and I had together and I hate how much of an asshole I was. But it's over now, and I doubt there is much I could do to mend the wounds that I carelessly created.
Final Fantasy XI has been my escape from all of this. I watch as the virtual me runs around (aimlessly at times) in this virtual world and somehow it makes me 'happy'. Over the course of a little more than a year now I've met many great people and made some really good friends. Logging in each day I'm welcomed warmly by the members of my Linkshell, and my close friends send me silly ASCII faces via /tell. It truly is quite an escape for me, because during these hours of the day I actually feel happy.
I must apologize, as I am absolutely uncertain what direction this journal entry is heading. I was just kinda feeling a bit sad today and thought I'd post up my thoughts. Please feel free to completely disregard my feeble ramblings and skip to the pictures section just ahead.
The Fun Stuff:
Ark Angels Burning Circle Fight:
We were all very pleased to beat this on our "Test Run".
Of course I chose the Knight's Earring for my Paladin.
My first Relic Armor!
Fun with weaponskills, new highest damage with 300% Full Swing.
>:D
And lastly...I am about 2k exp from 62 on my Bard. Been camping Novv the Whitehearted (for Minstrel's Coat) for a few weeks now; I'm 0/11 BTW.
Carnage Elegy pwns...
Until the next time...
Jefu