It's only you, beautiful, or I don't want anyone at all
GOSH.
talk about weekend. talk about emotional rollercoast. talk about being needy. talk about never knowing what you completely feel.
i have been so confused about feelings in the past 72 hours, i should just end my misery haha.
we'll call this the XYZ affair, in honor of the scandal during t.Jefferson's administration.
exhibit X- super sweet guy & i adore his personality. but he's giving me hella mixed signals and i'm like 'dude wtf, ya like me? ya dont? huh' other than that, like there's really no substance to conversations or flirting, ya kno?
exhibit y- gosh, i love him. but, bc of this thing called north carolina, he's giving me space. i feel like, it shouldnt be like this. and its not that i want him to get upset or jealous or angry... i just wish he wouldnt act differently bc just the idea that he's letting me go, for however long it is, makes me think he'll never love me anymore. i hate the feeling.
exhibit z- this boy has fine written all over him. haha. i don't know i suppose this is my silly hormones ragin but Z is fucking hot, and my type of guy down to his red boxers haha. he's probably wayyy out of my league.. but when i get an idea in my head its like, god i dont wanna give up with out a fight, or at least a kiss er something!
so that's my xyz affair.
my weekend was flippin good.
went to bbal w/ marvin
went to beach & outback w/ britney
went to moonie's house
went to symphony with the peanut gallery, had a grand time at mc-D's & bowlin alley.. and i unfortunately smoked a cigg that night =/ that was the first time since... the last time i hung out with H.!!!!
gosh, my life is flippin crazy, and ive just been an inactive horn dog. HAHA
talk about weekend. talk about emotional rollercoast. talk about being needy. talk about never knowing what you completely feel.
i have been so confused about feelings in the past 72 hours, i should just end my misery haha.
we'll call this the XYZ affair, in honor of the scandal during t.Jefferson's administration.
exhibit X- super sweet guy & i adore his personality. but he's giving me hella mixed signals and i'm like 'dude wtf, ya like me? ya dont? huh' other than that, like there's really no substance to conversations or flirting, ya kno?
exhibit y- gosh, i love him. but, bc of this thing called north carolina, he's giving me space. i feel like, it shouldnt be like this. and its not that i want him to get upset or jealous or angry... i just wish he wouldnt act differently bc just the idea that he's letting me go, for however long it is, makes me think he'll never love me anymore. i hate the feeling.
exhibit z- this boy has fine written all over him. haha. i don't know i suppose this is my silly hormones ragin but Z is fucking hot, and my type of guy down to his red boxers haha. he's probably wayyy out of my league.. but when i get an idea in my head its like, god i dont wanna give up with out a fight, or at least a kiss er something!
so that's my xyz affair.
my weekend was flippin good.
went to bbal w/ marvin
went to beach & outback w/ britney
went to moonie's house
went to symphony with the peanut gallery, had a grand time at mc-D's & bowlin alley.. and i unfortunately smoked a cigg that night =/ that was the first time since... the last time i hung out with H.!!!!
gosh, my life is flippin crazy, and ive just been an inactive horn dog. HAHA