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I had to work yesterday, 9-2. My parents came in to eat. It was quite funny. Cause I was going around with coffee cause it was the breakfast rush, and I get to a new table and start saying "Any coffee refills?" and my mom and dad look up at me and in the middle of my sentence I just lock up and I'm like.. "Hi guys..." lol. It was fine though. They didn't bother me or make fun of me or anything like that. So, that's good.
But after they left, it kinda started to suck. Ronnie got stuck serving LT [the biggest booth in the restaurant] and she's only been there a few days. and since we were so busy, I asked her if she wanted help getting their drinks cause there were like 9 people there. and she told me no. Then both Laura and Linda are like "help her with LT!" and I told them how I asked her and she told me she didn't want my help. but I got yelled at anyways. pft. and then Alycia came to the register to help me with a discount coupon and I told her I had messed up and thrown the mess up out, and she got all frustrated and was like "i'll do cash from now on. you just seat people and take around coffee. just leave cash to me." and then Linda went up to the register and Alycia started making these frustrated hand gestures and I guess told Linda what was going on and Linda's eyes went all big and she mouthed "no way" or something to that nature. Like I can't tell that they were talking about me.
So Veronica went up to Alycia and asked what was going on and Alycia told her I'd been making mistakes on the register and throwing the receipts of the mistakes away. Well I'm sorry that no one told me otherwise; I didn't know it was a serious offense to throw out a mess up. So then Veronica called me up there and told me that I had made a huuuuge mistake and that because of it she had had to stay an extra hour and a half on friday night trying to figure out where all the money went [she was short 120 bucks or something]. So I almost started crying because it was like my fourth day and I'd already screwed up beyond belief. So Alycia did the register almost the rest of my shift so I did a lot of standing around feeling useless and sorry for myself. And now I'm even more scared to start taking carry out orders cause I'm positive I'll mess those up. Guh.
I'm almost postive that Mark has lost a lot of respect for me too. And that sucks. All because I spend so much time with Derek. And I can feel that whenever I even say his name Mark gets all huffy about it. He pretty much feels like I've let my friends fall off my priority list. And you know what? I have. I know I have. But I'm not all that sorry about it. I feel bad that it's happened, sure. But it's what they had coming.
They all left me hanging around. They never call me, they never ask to hang out, they would always make our conversations about themselves, not even bothering to listen to what I had to say. So I have Derek, who listens to me when I talk, who DOES want to hang out with me, and I listen to him too. It's a symbiotic thing we have, not like the people who I constantly listened to and gave advice to when they needed it and then they left me to do whatever. Chelsea and Mark are the only two I REALLY feel badly about. But Chelsea's wrapped up in Robert, just like I am with Derek, so I know she isn't hating me too much. But Mark..he doesn't pick up the phone to call me, but he gets sooo defensive because Derek has "taken over." And it's not all my fault, and I'm sick of him making me feel like it is.
But after they left, it kinda started to suck. Ronnie got stuck serving LT [the biggest booth in the restaurant] and she's only been there a few days. and since we were so busy, I asked her if she wanted help getting their drinks cause there were like 9 people there. and she told me no. Then both Laura and Linda are like "help her with LT!" and I told them how I asked her and she told me she didn't want my help. but I got yelled at anyways. pft. and then Alycia came to the register to help me with a discount coupon and I told her I had messed up and thrown the mess up out, and she got all frustrated and was like "i'll do cash from now on. you just seat people and take around coffee. just leave cash to me." and then Linda went up to the register and Alycia started making these frustrated hand gestures and I guess told Linda what was going on and Linda's eyes went all big and she mouthed "no way" or something to that nature. Like I can't tell that they were talking about me.
So Veronica went up to Alycia and asked what was going on and Alycia told her I'd been making mistakes on the register and throwing the receipts of the mistakes away. Well I'm sorry that no one told me otherwise; I didn't know it was a serious offense to throw out a mess up. So then Veronica called me up there and told me that I had made a huuuuge mistake and that because of it she had had to stay an extra hour and a half on friday night trying to figure out where all the money went [she was short 120 bucks or something]. So I almost started crying because it was like my fourth day and I'd already screwed up beyond belief. So Alycia did the register almost the rest of my shift so I did a lot of standing around feeling useless and sorry for myself. And now I'm even more scared to start taking carry out orders cause I'm positive I'll mess those up. Guh.
I'm almost postive that Mark has lost a lot of respect for me too. And that sucks. All because I spend so much time with Derek. And I can feel that whenever I even say his name Mark gets all huffy about it. He pretty much feels like I've let my friends fall off my priority list. And you know what? I have. I know I have. But I'm not all that sorry about it. I feel bad that it's happened, sure. But it's what they had coming.
They all left me hanging around. They never call me, they never ask to hang out, they would always make our conversations about themselves, not even bothering to listen to what I had to say. So I have Derek, who listens to me when I talk, who DOES want to hang out with me, and I listen to him too. It's a symbiotic thing we have, not like the people who I constantly listened to and gave advice to when they needed it and then they left me to do whatever. Chelsea and Mark are the only two I REALLY feel badly about. But Chelsea's wrapped up in Robert, just like I am with Derek, so I know she isn't hating me too much. But Mark..he doesn't pick up the phone to call me, but he gets sooo defensive because Derek has "taken over." And it's not all my fault, and I'm sick of him making me feel like it is.