Cause there is so much left to say.
So I went back to see Mum and Dad, and Sammy of course. Missed him. He was so happy to see me. I don't think we got along this well before. Must be the distance I think.
Fawkes
So, after nudging Sammy out the door to play with some friends we talked, the three of us. I remained calm and collected, and I have no one to thank for that but Benjy. He must be rubbing off on me more than I thought. They explained everything--well everything they themselves knew and understood. Mum started crying, wishing things didn't have to be this way for their children. All Dad did was rock her gently. I told them, more calm than my letter had been how I felt about it. After apologizing for my letter, that I was upset and didn't think first.
I think what still angers me is that this is even needed. My mind for some reason can't seem to wrap itself around it. They had hoped there would be no need for me to know, and at first Dad was rather angry at Dumbledore for allowing Benjy to tell me about it. Giving me the option to join. He said he was fighting for his little girl, how could he fight something knowing I put myself in danger? Way to guilt me. I'm torn into pieces.
Before coming back I went to Grandpa's grave, putting flowers there like I did every year. Silently I prayed for him to help me. He always knew what to do, and he was always there. I hate winter. It reminds me of death, and I hate it.
Back! Seems as if my Christmas present got a hold of my scroll. He seems to like paper. But he's too adorable to stay mad at him.
His name is Binx. Isn't he just precious? My old cat is at home, he's getting rather old and sick. They can give him proper care at home unlike me. But it was tough, I've had him since I can remember.
Fawkes
Hey you--I was wondering, do you think there is a time limit on the offer to join with Headmaster Dumbledore? I think going home only confused me more.