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The more I practice, the more nervous I get. I've been practicing incessantly since I got back from camp, but honestly I find it painful and frustrating because all the confidence I had in my playing and all the feelings that i was so close to mastery of a certain area of sound are completely wiped. It feels like I have retrogressed back to last year and it really really scares me because now im spending all of my time on rebuilding my tone and I feel like it's not even coming close to what it was before. How could so much skill be lost in one week? I feel like a complete novice. I was looking forward to pure progress this summer. I was looking forward to getting into the wind ensemble at school. Now I feel like progress can't even happen because I'm really rebuilding from the bottom. How terrible. I'm at a loss...I felt so on top before...now I don't know what to do.